... I really can't.

Okay, you guys should know me fairly well by now, and I'm sure you'll be as shocked to hear this as I am.

Well, I guess I'm not happy.

Before I continue, please, no "Happy_Cloud" jokes or "Sad_Cloud" jokes, because I'm neither sad nor depressed, yet nowhere near happy either.

Yup, that's right. I'm...neutral .

I can't shake this overwhelming feeling of indifference. I used to be such a passionate and interested person. I remember a while ago I made a blog talking about the lives of coins, imagining the amount of times they changed hands and the different things they could've bought. I used to wright stories about watermelons, and I remember not too long ago I wrote a huge blog when I was bored featuring poems, action scenes and even drawings.

But now, it's like I just don't care. And this applies not only to Gamespot but life in general. Don't you dare say "emo", but more and more I find myself wondering just what the point is. I feel strange and unusual saying this, as we all know that's not who I am. It took me a little while to realise I've been feeling this way, and the more time passes, the stronger the feeling gets.

I'm worried I'm becoming a nihilist, despite the fact that my life has so much meaning. It's frustrating, because everything is going right, my life is entirely on track, and I should feel satisfied, but I don't. I just don't, and I can't change that.

I'm hoping this is all just a phase, and I'll be back to myself soon, but at the moment, this sounds too much like wishful thinking.

I used to be so happy, and content with life, but now for some inexplicable reason, nothing seems to satisfy me.