I'm trying to find a delicate balance and method so that I can talk to you guys, write fanfiction, draw fanart, play videogames, and take care of critters every day. I hope I'm succeeding! Please don't think I'm ever ignoring my buddies out there, it's just I got so much stuff to to...And work. Gotta have the money, honey! Sweet dolla dolla bill, y'all.

I've been applying for financial aid so that I can finally get into some sort of school. I'd like to be a vet tech. Then after I get that experience, I could do what I always wanted, be a dog trainer focusing on protection work. I'm also getting a lot more days at work, which means less time for everything else, but a whole lot more cash. Yeah, that's what I'm talking about...I need that. Badly. Credit card bill bad...Very bad.

In case anyone is wondering, with my gerbil issue...It didn't go so hot. I was trying to switch them so that they could get used to one another, but it went very bad very fast. Usually Rick could get away from Doom, but when I went to switch them, he didn't make it downstairs. He got taken to school, and he was injured very badly in the fight. Surprisingly enough, it was Doom that was the aggressor while Rick was just trying to get along. I thought he was okay at first, they seemed to be at a stand off where they were ignoring one another, so I kept checking back every fifteen minutes or so, then I found him fading away in his cage, an inch away from death, and I had to do that again...

Damn it, I'm really sick of being the Grim Reaper, here. That's it, no more, Doom is staying by himself and I'm not going to replace anyone or give him away. I don't trust him with anybody else. Only his dad could deal with his crap and put him in his place, and he had to up and get sick...That just went and ****ed everything up. Now I have one left of four, with two females left in another cage with a litter of babies that will be ready to go soon. That's the last, no more after that. Reasons being finances and concerns with behavior...Because of things like what happened above.

I'm not so much sad as I am just sick and tired of it. They wanted a fight, they got it...I can only do so much. I can set up the situation, but in the end they are not dogs and cats, and I can't correct them nor find a home for a beaten-up gerbil. I couldn't seperate them, I wanted them to get along because in the end it would have been better for both, gerbils need companioship. I feel sorry for Rick, but I feel more irritation towards Doom because he had the chance of having a companion and he threw it away. Well, I hope you enjoy living alone, is all I can tell 'ya...

I got a picture of Hewie, the film was finally developed. It's going to have to wait until I get the scanner set up, which I will do when I finish my current fan art. Everybody just loves him! My mom said she's very glad I got him, he is just such a teddy bear. He's been doing the cutest things, putting his paws on your lap with his mouth open and tongue lolling out! Watching the two play is simply amusing.

I've thrown out the idea of him being half Rottie, I really do now think he's mostly shepherd. His father must have been either a purebred GSD or at least half one, because he now looks near identical to a GSD puppy, the only real difference being the ears which are small and floppy. He might have a little bit of Rottie in there. Though one thing I noticed about him is that he wants nothing to do with fetching. Literally, this dog hasn't fetched once. Nor does he like to play in the traditional sense. He would much rather sit and chew on hoof or rawhide or play with Spooky. I will have to teach him. I love a good challenge!

In terms of fandom with my lovely lady HG, I'm working on it, always! I've joined LiveJournal so I can be a part of that community and hopefully not start trouble. (Heehee!) I'm working on both HG art and fanfiction, the fanart being one of Riccardo and Fiona making out. (Hawt!) And the fanfiction being chapter 5 of "Tu Fui, Ego Eris". I just finished a part where...Well, let's just say Fiona's been very bad...And he decides she needs to be "corrected". You guys are going to love it. :D

Now I'm trying to get "Speed Walker" title in HG, doing a good job! I'm up to Lorenzo's segment, and I'll be getting it soon. I have to lay off for a few days, or else I won't be able to get a thing done. Soon, I will have them all...And get absolutely nothing! Uhhh, hooray?

I hate diets...Counting calories, popping pills, not being a pig...But there's so much chocolate & peanut butter! So much chocolate...So much peanut butter...The world sucks.

Wow, that's my life...I'm lame. :lol: