First, thanks so much for all your advice, and sorry I didn't respond, things were kinda crazy. So big hugs to you all, seriouslyit meant a lot to know you all cared.


So, I took many of my friends advice (including all of you, thanks so much) and I told him how I felt. That I didn't think marriage was for me, but I still loved him and wanted to be with him, and I had no plans of ever leaving him, I just don't think marriage s right for me.

He said he understood and he still loved me and would be with me on whatever terms I wanted, all that mattered is that he was with me. He also told me to keep the ring, (I wear on my right hand) because I am the only one he would ever want to give a ring to. *cue the aww's*

If it were that simple, it wouldn't be real life.

I swear, once we talked it out, things shifted in our relationship, there's a distance now. Maybe he is trying to deal with the change from thinking we would be married to 'not' being married anymore. Maybe it's me, mayne I am pulling away because I think that if he really knew me at all, he wouldn't have proposed in the first place. Or maybe it's just all in my head, and nothing's changed.

Either way, I feel another talk coming on, and I have a feeling it is gonna be harder than the last one.

Sorry to be so d@mn depressing when I come on here, it just helps to get my thoughts down, and he would NEVER come on here, so sorry that you all have to suffer through my drama.

A goody for you if you stuck it out and read all that: