Hello Once Again,

This one will be broken into sections, take it slowly, or not at all. :lol:

Edit: Forgot to thank you all for the lovely kindness about the poetry-thing bloggy I did the other day. :P

So the apartment...not quite as nice as the family kept saying it was. Sure, I had been here to look it over too, but I only had a few minutes to look it over, so I missed a couple of things. A quartet of gems for your amusement:

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The stove, that blighter has issues with controlling its temperature, when I put it on 400 it apparently stayed within about 50 degrees of what I set it to, 50 higher, 50 lower, makes cooking like a game right?

The dishwasher, this one has aspirations of being an automatic-floor-washer, only problem is, it doesn't have a mop built-in. Found this out during mid-operation when I noticed a sound a water trickling...I'm going to take the guess that the water gushing under the counter is likely not a good thing. ;)

The air-conditioner...I cannot adequately describe it without profanity...suffice it for me to say that it has been 80+ degrees (27+ celsius) in here (minimum) all day, and a fair bit of the night...take into consideration that its about that hot outside, or cooler...

Finally, the front door. Um, normally the point of a front door is to keep things out...the deadbolt does this job, but the other one? I think it really likes having guests. :roll:

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Other apartment stuff

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Oh, I am posting this from the 'comfort' of my apartment floor. For those not reading the comments in the other blogs, I happened to gain access to a nearby wireless connection. :D One of the side-effects is that the connection has filtering software, therefore all my postings are coming from tv.com...and I cannot see any emoticons...GS or photobucket ones. I must applaud the maker of the filter...because it does not hurt online gaming or MSN in the slightest. :lol:

Some of my friends, reality and internet, have developed the opinion that my neighborhood here is bad. It may be, but honestly it doesn't seem too bad to me, just a few lackluster people around and all. I've told a couple of them a simple reasoning behind me thinking it not too bad. Where I am now I hear police with their sirens all the time, but that means they are doing something. Where I used to live (back when I was in a 'city' ), if gunshots went off, if people had fights in the street, screaming about fouled up drug-deals, just about everything...the cops wouldn't come. It says something about a place when the cops DON'T go there, and I personally like hearing the sirens here. :lol:

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Life

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Now a little about how life has been treating me. The important things are that I am alive, and things should lighten up eventually...though that hasn't been the case as of late. A friend of mine has been needing some help, and coupling that with school, moving, and everything else, has been hard. The pressure got to me, and when something came up in conversation with someone, a little piece of John broke into way too many pieces and little bits of it got stuck in my mind's gears. :lol: I started to slip into a powerful depression, but my stubborness kept it from getting too much control, as I felt I had to help my friend and that there would be time for sulking later. It was fairly bad depression...the kind where your body aches some, can't sleep, don't eat, don't want to get up. Bad part was that I was already aching, couldn't sleep, and didn't want to eat naturally. :P

A time or so later, don't really know how long, found me praying as I sat alone in a chair. I have never prayed like a 'normal' person in my life, its more just me talking to myself without a hint of reverance and wondering if something is listening. I don't care what transpired, if you're religious then you can say God saved my ragged butt, and if not, you can say my mind started to come to grips with all the grim things in my life. The important thing is that I had, I guess, a sort of ephitany (I'm sure veni-vidi-vici would be thrilled :P) and started to piece myself back together. I doubt anybody around me (barring a special few) even noticed my trouble, as I keep this kind of stuff on a John-to-John basis.

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Pretty soon I plan on just taking some time to sleep and recover from all the abuse I'm putting my body through. ;) The good news is that I probably will be slightly more together after I am done putting glue in all the cracks. :lol:

That covers WAY more than any of you want to know, so I'll finish off. :P Oh, nearly forgot the most lovely part of today...a new computer table I bought...I would have been better off buying boards and making one. :| When I tightened one of the fasteners, by hand, I ended up breaking the metal into two pieces...I did this lovely trick twice before I decided to stop. :lol: Its getting returned tomorrow, and then I might look at boards at Home Depot. :P

Anyhoo, best of luck to all of you, hope things are going, or will start going, well for you all...I imagine this gives a little reasoning to my spotty posting. ;)

-John

"In the journey of a hundred years, do the miles really count?" -John