A Lot of time has passed since I last logged on here... Its interesting reading my past situations... They seem so long ago and insignificant with what lays ahead. I'm an "adult" now. Old enough to vote, die in a war, smoke a cancer, but not to drink legally.

Work is better than I expected it to be. Part-time job but its okay I guess. A lot of nice people. Some are fools, but what can you do?

I think I finally figured out what I want to pursue in life. Philosophy. The study of thought, why we're here, big questions like that that intrigue me immensely.

The indulgence of the arts seems to have payed off. After countless new artists discovered, new genres, and pop culture in general, It has opened my eyes up a bit.

For one, I could never imagine back then that music could be so beautiful, sad, encompassing. I hope to learn to play the piano some day.

I don't feel as lost as I did a year ago. Being alone doesn't scare me. But yet, I still yearn for something.

Man... recent music heard by me was The White Stripes' - Icky Thump, and Queens of the Stone Age's - Era Vulgaris. IT was a surprisingly good album. I wasn't expecting much and I got a lot. QOTSA's hasn't gotten much listening... I haven't been feeling it yet. Still really into NIN but also Radiohead. Man I got into these artists so late... That girl and I hardly ever talk now. Life seems meaningless now. I only look forward to where NIN and Radiohead are heading atm (yes i know pathetic). I'm on my last year in this high school (Cibola High in Yuma). I don't know what to do after... Probably Military. Should be a last resort but I dunno what else. End Rant or now.

Man Year Zero album (NIN) is almost here and I can't wait. Heard album on their site and its just plain good. And just next month another new album is coming out. Its Minutes to Midnight (LP) I heard the single and it was alright, can't wait to hear the other tracks. Been obsessed with NIN lately (about a month and counting). I can't believe I have missed out on their music for so long. And hearing that TR is working on another album (something like a Year Zero pt. 2) is great. Oh and about my previous posts, reading them now... *lol* seems so pathetic. Things were a bit less depressing when I had no friends...

So about this freshman girl I wrote about almost a month ago... Me and her started to talk and became good friends (Imo). I thought I found someone I could express my emotions around without being criticised. But then a talk I had about her nephew who passed away led to me saying something that led to a breakdown in our friendship. Since that talk we've never gotten as close as we did... Why do I always push people away like that? I miss her. But good thing I didn't fall in love (I know it would have happened eventually if we continued) because I really would have gotten depressed. I never expected her to be the person she turned out to be (which is sweet, kind, and helpful). Alas, I suppose this is just one of the many events life throws at you. But I dropped the ball this time. This should prepare for next time, I hope (for all I know, this will be the last person I've come across who had the patience to listen to me). When we see each other, we still give each other a hug (usually). I decided to use this site to vent my life (haha, don't like it? Don't read it then).

Haha... I know this is a gaming site but I don't know where else to talk about this. OK here is the situation, there is this girl (freshman but a cute one[she looks older though], I'm a junior) the other day who said that when she saw me, she saw something special in me. She said I was going to do something special in life... I didn't know how to take this info seeing as how my step-dad says other wise. Btw she is a religious person, and I am not. I haven't told her this... I don't think I should because they will probably bug me even more about my life and such. *Sigh* Anyways whoever reads this, disregard this and continue on the purpose of this site... GAMING!

So Christmas is comin' up. I told my parents that I wanted a Wii... But I doubt I will get it. Other day I was looking on top of our entertainment center in the living room when I came across a receipt. On it were purchases of 2 1GB MP3 players and a bicycle from Walmart. Well my parents already gave me the bike (which is a mountain bike, and i really enjoy it). But as for the MP3 player, I have over a gig of music so I won't be able to fit it all... :( As for the other MP3 player, I'm guessin that goes to my other brother (11). I don't even think hes heard over 500 megs worth of music :p . Oh well if I don't get a Wii I'll probably just have to get a job seeing as my parents keep buggin me on gettin one. PS. Tanks (my slang word for thanks) Union for sendin me an invite :D

I recently got into hearing Daft Punk again. First time I heard a song from them was the song called 'Da Funk' and 'Around the World'. In a game server. Gotta go, I'll ad more to this later... OK, now to continue. So once I saw the Music Videos on Toonami (which used to be a good thing to watch on the CN until they pulled it...) I thought ' Wow this is crazy' That was the first I have seen anything like that. I was probably about ten at the time. I hadn't even got into music yet. But since those years long ago I now apreciate it. Anyways, I shall forever be a fan of teh moosic (my slang word for music).