Well, it's the 10th of August and I think that it has been about 6 (?) days since my last blog post... nothing much has happened in my life really except for the elation of realising that there are only 27 days of schooling left for me... 13 years of institutionalisation and I have 27 days left! Woo-hoo!

Me thinks it might be time for a general update about everything, so here goes!

My life in general:

Is pretty crappy in general, those who know why, know why, and those who don't, then ummm, don't worry yourselves with it lol... you'll have it figured by the end of the blog. My music makes me happy though...

My Music:

Is going very well, i'm playing about a second year university level which is good, shame that my technical work and music theory is lagging behind though, it's about a 1st year level :(

On Tuesday, 12th August I will be performing a recital for my Music Major at school @ 7:30pm (Thats on August 11 at 5:30 for you people over the Date line in Canada and the States, August 12 @ 5:30 for Singapore, and 4:00pm for China :P)

Hopefully it will go well, and I'm expecting about 100 people to turn up... more would be nice, but 100 is an OK number...

My Schooling in general:

School is going well (I think :?) i have a few major assessments due but they are all going to be completed on time and in before the due dates and everything should be fine if I do that...

My Bludging:

Well, what can I say! I love bludging (Who dosen't!?! :)) I have just finished burning the complete series of Avatar to DVD for me to watch in the time that bludge during my bludging hehe...

My Everything that I cant think of a header for or to talk about:

Hmmm... i'ma just say extremely mediocre.

My Relationships:

I made a point of not putting this at the end, but i still did... Stupid Josiah!!

Well, what can I say about this... well the point is where to start!

(Oh, and i realise that i use this blog as such a cry session, but it's good just to be able to write something and not have to worry about somone seeing it, i mean, ok, i know that people can, but not many people know that I have a TV.com profile hehe...)

Well, my ex-girlfriend Nicola (check out her profile... it's always_smile) is being... well... very... unkind to me. As much as i hoped (and I said it in my previous blogs that we were friends) that we would still be friends we aren't anymore.

It was her choice for us not to be friendly towards earch other at all anymore and aslong as she's happy then that is all that matters. Me, I dont understand why she's being like this towards me, and why she just want's to pretend that the last nearly year with me never happened? (Girls, please offer some advice on this to me!!) I still love her, and I don't know if I should anymore... Truth be told I don't actually know what I'm feeling anymore (god I hope that she's reading this though... Not to be mean to her, but maybe she'll talk to me?? :?) One thing that I do know though, is that no matter how much I miss her, (and yes, it probably is going to sound stalkerish) but I don't just miss her mentally, I miss her physically as well, not for any other reason than having someone special to be close too and be with... yeah. I don't like anyone else... I couldn't. I still feel really attached to her and the only way I can explain it is that someone has taken something of yourse, and you can see it but you cant do anything about it :( I even spoke to her best friend about it, and she thinks that she isdealing with the breakup in a very bizarre way, that isn't like her... i'm just looking for an answer and it's making me really sad :(

Anyway that's my life in the last 4 (?) weeks...

Cheers

~ Josiah