I haven't wrote here for more than a year I guess. Things haven't been to well with stuff around me. Yet this wasn't the way I planned to start writing here again. A good man has died.

Eddie Guerrero, a true friend of his friends, has passed away. There is too much sadness in me to be described in words. As a fan of wrestling, Eddie Guerrero was one of my favorite wrestlers, not only because of his personality, but because each time I saw him in the ring, I loved it. He was one of the few wrestlers I trully and honestly enjoyed to watch wrestle in the ring. He was one of the WWE superstars that made me watch wrestling again. He will be missed, and I will not miss him alone I know. Many around the world miss him with me; his family, his friends, his co-workers and his fans. And we are all deeply sad for what happenned. But we will never forget you Eddie Guerrero.

Vaya con Dios homes...

HELL GUESS WHAT?! I SCREWED ANOTHER SEMESTER!!! Thats it, I'm calling this year off. I cannot, under the current circunstances, finish ANY of my classes this semester. I am physically, mentally and (may you believe or not in such things) espiritually exhausted. University sounds cool, but the classes there demand a lot from you, a LOT MORE than one is used to. To help this, my family is going into CHAOS mode and my mom apparently blames me for everything (such things as my sister misfortunes in the fields of boyfriends, my grandma's heart condition, among others), and I admit SOME are my fault, MANY others are not. I am not saying this just because I want to look innocent, but those I "supposedly" affected say that I had or have nothing to do with their current problems. I for one believe my mother is blaming me for the simple reason that I am the oldest of her children. In fact, I'm the oldest in my generation of the family (cousins included). Hell, kinda makes you think why am I getting all this heat?! I'm going to try and pass some classes, but I ain't seeing it happen. If I don't get a well relaxed summer, WITH NO ONE annoying, maybe next school year things might be different.
Also, been trying out KotOR 2, Battle for Middle Earth and I'm trying to pick between buying Metal Gear Solid 3 Snake Eater or World of Warcraft. Thinking on going with MGS 3, since my computer might just "relocate" itself to my gramma's house, thus making contact with my foreign friends a somewhat dificult task.
Let us wait and see...

I definitely blew it sky high. I screwed my exams, ALL of them, and seems this 2º semester is going the same way. However I got hold of Lineage 2, and have been playing it with my univ. buddies. Hopefully I will get WoW soon, and enter the world of one of my favorite games. Have also been practicing some amator wrestling, but stopped for a while given a small injury while a Sharpshooter was being applied on me. There's gonna be a paintball tournament at my univ. soon, can't wait from my friends to get pwned. Also getting Republic Commando soon, been seeing videos, it's cool. Also, I'm going to try to get Zone of the Enders The 2nd Runner, but since it's not on sale anymore over here (here = Portugal), I'll have to ask a friend of mine to order it from Amazon.co.uk... Oh yeah, got that new pc, P4 3.6Ghz 1024Mb RAM 250 Gb HD, LCD screen 17'' and a Radeon X700 256Mb. Awesome right? except for the part that it's in my sister room and that I can only have 2 games installed on it... Can my life get any worse? Well, my tests, projects and exams are coming up and I'm going to be busy from now 'till July, so my life will probably become worse, definitely... crap I need something to cheer me up... BABES!!!

Well I haven't written here since October... and today on new year's eve I decided to do it, hell I ain' gopt nothing better to do. X-mas was cool, got almost enough money to buy a new pc, but almost isn't enough, and nobody in the family wants to borrow me the rest of the money... this is definitelly my curse, my damned family doesn't help me in any sh*t I do... Besides that I got my final exams on my univ. in January, and I'm not gonna have access to my pc or PS2 'till then... I would really like to get the son of a b**ch that told my mom how to take out the pc screen and PS2 tv cables... Besides ALL this crap that has been happening to me, I wish a Happy New Year to everyone at Gamespot, and same thing to all gamers everywhere. Dudes, party on tonight =))

Well, I'm gonna be 19 next 10/28. But before that, let me just say that I FINALLY have Warhammer 40,000 Dawn of War. The game is f**king amazing, seeing a 30 foot daemon play man-hockey is very cool. Now, to the birthday stuff. As any respectful gamer, I already have my games list ready, and they are Need for Speed Underground 2, WWE Smackdown! vs RAW and of course, GTA San Andreas. Unfortunately, since I live in Europe's a** (ready previous journal entry), these games won't probably be here in the next 2 weeks at least. But I can wait, I mean, I waited 3 weeks for Dawn of War, I can wait a bit more for these. To bad I got exams the next 3 weeks after my birthday, but I'll manage to play a bit, you know, stress management, getting it out of your body. I'm just hoping the games get here faster then DoW.

Ok... why do I live in the a** end of nowhere? I have been trying to get Warhammer 40.000 Dawn of War for 2 weeks since its launch date in Europe... I mean, I have friends in the UK that already got this game, and one in the Netherlands that says that the game is already there. I mean, I live in Portugal, THAT'S IN EUROPE, LIKE ENGLAND AND THE NETHERLANDS, WHY DO THEY GET IT FIRST AND I STILL HAVE TO WAIT?!?!?! This sucks... It's always like this for games and movies and DVDs. I usually don't mind waiting for them, but when its a great game, I want it as soon as it gets in the shelves. Want an example? Sims 2 hit Portuguese (Portugal's my country, don't know if I said it before) shelves almost immediately after it hit shelves in the UK. Doom 3? Same thing. I'm starting to think this is all the delivery companies fault. I mean, they have got to have schedules, WHY WON'T THEY FOLLOW THEM?! THQ is the publisher for Warhammer 40k DoW, maybe if it was a BIG software house like EA it would be already here... which reminds me... HEY EA GAMES WANNA THINK ABOUT BUYING THQ?! At least I and many other players would get our games faster and ON TIME... crappy delivery system...

University... it's hell. During my entire school life, I never had problems with school. Doing great, till my last 2 high school years... (by the way, to understand what I'm about to write, my nick name is Jay Christ, but it's in my native language, Portuguese, which I'm proud to be goddamn it!!)
My 2 last high school years were like I was being crucified, my math teacher was a really sick dude, mentally speaking. Nothing gave him more pleasure than seeing us go berserk on his really-hard-as-hell exams. After that stuff, I though that that was it, no more, game over on the psycho math teacher. Then came university... my personal descent to hell, only this time, it wouldn't last some 3 days, like Jesus C., noooooooooooooo, this little trip to hell is gonna take my 5 long goddamn years to do. And in the middle, there goes my gaming. I'm probably gonna lose the best games that are gonna come out, and even if I do get one, I won't be able to play him as much as I would like. University = your personal living, breathing Hell. I guess other ppl are lucky, they got better Univ. than this hell. Warhammer 40,000 Dawn of War comes out to Europe 09/24, gonna try to at least get it to play a little in the rare free time I have now. Goddamn it this stuff really (please think of the thing you most hate, then think about all the names you want to call it, and imagine them here with your mind. Thank you for your cooperation.)

Ah well, I just gotta write what I think, after all, that's what these guys at gamespot encourage us to do. Well, I'm goona go to univ. in about a week or so, so I don't think I'll be playing a lot of games from now on, at least 'till X-mas. But that doesn't mean I still can't buy them to play later, cause I got my eye in a lot of good stuff out there. Warhammer 40,000 Dawn of War, Evil Genius, GTA San Andreas, WWE Smackdown! Vs RAW, NFS UNderground 2, I'm gonna get them all (or try to). Been playing DoW and Evil Genius demo, downloaded from this godblessed site, and the games look great, and they're the first ones to come out on my game list. So I'm in the univ. that doesn't mean I can't still play games an hour or 2 a weak. It'll be hard to release myself from this summer indused game addiction, but I'll survive... Don't we all?...