Needed somewhere ...
by KrimsonTwilight on Comments
I need somewhere where there is no ties to any of my friends in the real life to get this off my chest. And before any of this is said, yes I am having a pity party. Over the past week or so I met a girl that we just seemed to click, something I haven't had pretty much ever, and after getting close too fast she just wants to be friends. She does have things about former relationships that haunt her, and the fact she goes off to basic for the national guard in a few months for nearly a year doesn't help either. I understand these and I don't want to drag up things that hurt her to say, but to be honest I think that a positive relationship could only help in the end. I will miss being close to her, but I feel the need to honor her decision and keep at arms length until she feels she can get close again. Just talking about all this makes be overly sentimental, which is strange for me having the tendencies of a stoic, I just wish I could adopt the heart of a stoic and no longer feel like I am missing an opportunity and seeing someone I have truly come to care for walk away. I know for as short a time as this I shouldn't have such strong feelings, but lo and behold here they are and I need to talk about them in a place that they can do her no harm. Honestly I would really like to come to see this all as selfish but I guess as selfish as it is I just have a hard time letting go
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