Well, I had my "first" second date last night... Let's just say I bombed worse than Hiroshima. :(
To start off, I am 15, and I don't go to a public/private high school. I was home-schooled for my entire life, up until I graduated at the end of last semester. Because I don't go to a normal school, it's rare that I meet girls. Usually in High School, you know if the girl you're interested in is single, and you have a general idea of their personality. I do not have that kind of advantage when it comes to meeting girls. Well, about a week ago, watching a booth at a local County Fair, a very beautiful (At least in my opinion) girl kind of meandered in with her friends, checking out everything in the booth (The place was about twice as big as your normal garage.) They kind of goofed off and sat down, talking a whispering amongst themselves, about what I was not sure. Now a few times, while glancing at her myself, I caught her glancing at me, and vice-versa. Well, they walk out, then come back in a few minutes later, again aimlessly walking about, whispering amongst themselves. The girl who I had eyed walked up to me and asked me for the time. I politely gave it to her, she thanks, no biggie, she was on her way. Then she came back not a minute later, and asked for my name. I gave her my name, then asked for hers. She told me, and I said she had a very pretty name. She said thanks, and went back outside. Then, for the last time, she came back in, and asked me for my cell-phone number, which she had seen me messing with in my boredom. I said "Sure, it's all yours if you give me yours." She agreed, we traded numbers, and she went off again.

She texted me later that night and we talked on the phone a bit. Over the week (Since last Friday when we first met) we got to know each other over Texting and talking over the phone, but mostly over Yahoo!.
Well A few days ago on Friday we went for our first date together (Which was also my first date) I took her to go see Friday Night Lights. It went pretty well. We were both comfortable, I was calm and cool, I held her hand and put my arm around her shoulder, blahdy blahdy.
Well Yesterday, we went for our second date to a Corn Maze (Which is very big in my town, they have it every October. Everyone thinks it's loads of fun) with her, her sister, and friend of hers. This is where everything went awry. Suffice to say: "Crash and Burn." I could tell she had a terrible time, and I wasn't a very good date that night. The whole thing just blew up in my face. When I left she looked so totally bummed out, a real "Holy crap that sucked." kind of look and feel about her.
I haven't talked to her yet, she was at a Wedding today. I am pretty sure she thinks me to be a big loser, and I couldn't blame her. I have wanted a girl friend for a very long time now. No, not because I see things on TV, or because my friends have one, nothing peer-pressure. I have wanted a girl friend for many other reasons. You may not be able to tell by my cynical attitude on the forums, but my relationship-personality is a huge romantic. I have waited nearly a year for this to finally happen, and wouldn't you know it, I go and ruin the whole damn thing. Every time some rare occasion such as this happens, I do something to foul it up.

Only 3 words describe what my last year of life has been like: "F*** me Freddy."