I was just reading a thread about games that have bad starts, the guy was going on about Morrowind and how difficult t is to get into. Which i totally agree with!

This got me thinking though - these days it is very rare for a game to hold my attention long enough for me to bother getting to the end. So when i do, i think i deserve a great ending, something that makes it feel like the hours of invested time was worth the wait....does it ever happen....no. Here's my personal reasoning....

I think that when you spend hours on a game, really enjoying what you are doing and trying to do your best throughout what possible way can a game make you feel as though it wasn't in vain? I mean really, what is there that they can provide you that makes your physical time feel rewarded? That you've saved mankind? that your actions stopped evil over-running a city? of course thats not going to satisfy you! Not only have you now lost the thing that was occupying your time for the last few weeks/months, but you have nothing really to show for it other than bags under your eyes, sweaty hands and an irate girlfriend.

Wouldn't it be great if a game could reward you with something in real life as well as giving you an explosive end to your time? Or maybe showing you what contribution your playing experience has made to some online collective?!? I don't know, i just want more for my invested time - even if i did enjoy every moment of it!

Just to name a couple KOTOR2 and Deus Ex left me feeling robbed - i absolutely adored Deus Ex and so the ending was a big anti-climax for me. Although it did make me want to replay to get the other endings.....only to be dissapointed i had reached the end.....again!

----------in the rest of my life-----------

- I haven't started teaching yet and i am already snowed under with essays and preparation

- i have given up on Kite-surfing because its far too expensive and takes too much time!

- I have returned to my roots of Canoeing and have been getting in a couple of hours over the last couple of weeks

- Soreen (malted loaf) with butter and jam is my favourite food for this week

- i accidentally swallowed a bug on the way to work this morning....it did not taste good