I don't get why but yesterday I was feeling insecure and now I am feeling even worse. I have the feeling that after all this awesome time without fights and with my best friend being so nice and my girl being "normal"... things are gonna be bad again. I know it is ridiculous! Today I was with my friend and he was great, we talked a lot and he even told me some interesting things... anyway after that, I don't know why, he said some things or was differently, and that is why I got insecure! Tomorrow is suppossed to come here to see a film but he said some things that made me believe that maybe he doesn't want to. Besides my other friend (He is not such important) told things that made me think too, anyway he was not there with us so I don't mind a lot, It is funny that after all this time saying that I don't want him all the time there, now I am kinda missing him. I don't know! I just need be more positive, try to spend time with them and don't feel that I am not one of them, Anyway, If tomorrow he doesn't come to see that film I will be again like this. So I am the one the is scre-wing all thisbecause of my pesismisticpersonality and my paranoia!? I hope not:cry: Lately I am really thinking that I have a problem of duality:SometimesI am really great and thenext timeI amreallysad!Well, being honest, I guess it is because I am only really happy when I am with some especific people and if they are not there I keep thinking about them!