Whether or not this has anything to do with the increase in philosophical activity in my mind is unknown but I can say that recently I have slowly been dropping my old habit of being terribly pessimistic toward almost every situation. I don't really know why I developed that outlook in the first place but at the moment that subject is moot and irrelevant. The point is, I have adopted a new view regarding a give situation, Optopemissim, which is a combination between Optimism, the "glass half full" and pessimism, the "glass half empty" side. However it is not as simple as one would think because I do not think of the good and bad in a situation currently affecting me instead I, more or less, continue to view subjects with pessimism but when given the ability to recount the event or when considering the ill issues arriving with said situation I can often make a point to myself about how it could possibly be made better or simply turned around. For instance, if I know I did not do well on a math test (which happened today), I often think that it gives me the ability to examine my study habits as well as have a reason to get after school help and figure out what gives me such issues. Even something such as roller coasters, which I viewed with outright paranoia in the past have quickly become a joyride for me because even if, on the off chance, that I were to go plummeting to my doom from hundreds of feet up in the air, I would finally be able to experience the Limbo feature of the afterlife firsthand, hey I might even come back as a spirit and haunt that ride forever. That goes without saying, you will never get me on the Dragster, my fear of heights still holds strong.
A strange quote was posed to me that somewhat reflected my new outlook, it regarded how my friend had spoken to his mother when he was over at my house today. This was his first drive with his license so I think I could see how his mom would be peeved with him simply getting up and leaving, but again I have made a moot point (yay me). The quote was "You catch more bees with honey." said to me by my own mother when regarding the social interactions mentioned above. The quote obviously means that you can have a better life and havemore enjoyable days when you try to make friends with people.In a gleaming fit of philosophy, however,I quickly retaliated, "That is, until you attract a bear." For once I didn't have to explain what I just said to my mom and she picked up the meaning rather timely, but mostly I think that my response allowed some insight into myself, how instead of simply mentally shooting down that phrase and hopeful banter I added a dark, cynical twist that gave the feeling of creeping tension when considering who the "honey" you make can gather, and how well you can really deal with them.
Why does something always go wrong when you ad the phrase ."In theory-" before it?
Frayed nerves and broken bones do not a weak man make.