Yep...just another normal day for myself...I made a new mortal enemy. :P No...even though I do have a fair amount of mortal enemies...this one came out slightly differently...and it initially upset me...it didn't make me angry at first...which is what usually happens. This one really upset me. Okay...I guess I'll just explain it in this paragraph. Do you remember me talking about this girl who I was FORMERLY friends with, SS? No...well...I mentioned it before. :P She's in my Prose, Advanced Geo, and History sections...and we got along really well and we were good friends. Then I told her that I'm in GSA and came out to her and she's been avoiding me ever since. (I'm actually surprised I had to come out to her...I came out last school year and I've chosen to be openly gay...so I just kinda assumed that everyone in my grade at BLS woulda known already. And...if not...I'm sure you could piece things together...since all the stereotypes that come with being a lesbian fit me quite well. :P Although...I could get that someone might mistake me for a transvestite or something like that. :P But...whatever...the point is...it surprised me. :P ) And for a while I've been wondering why she's been avoiding me. So...to see if SS was really homophobic or something...I asked Jenna if she'd try talking to SS...since SS knows that Jenna's a lesbian as well. Apparently nothing bad happened...so SS isn't homophobic. So then later on this week I talked to her and asked her what she has against me. She called me a "tr*nny" (I consider it a bad word...I usually refer to it as the "bad t-word" or something like that) and said that she knew all about that incident with Dan. How? I dunno...she never told me. But she's been avoiding me because I MIGHT be a transgender. Oh Zeus...that was just an experiment andthe thought is still prominent in my mind but I haven't really bothered with it...before I can be sure I'll haveta make time for more reading and experimenting and then be ready for some big changes. Jenna knows about that...she doesn't mind...as long as I don't plan on going on a date with her as Dan. :P So...yeah...that's why she's been avoiding me. At first I was really upset about this...I didn't cry or something like that...she's not worth that much trouble...but I was upset for a few days. But...now that's turned into anger. Call me crazy but I personally think it feels somewhat better to be angry at someone than to be upset. And I'm never bothering with SS ever again...if she can't accept me for who I am as an individual then screw her...she's not worth my time. Oh, and this anger has sparked some of my cynical creativity...I've been thinking of ways to kill her all weekend! :twisted: :P MWAHAHAHAHA!!!!! :twisted: :P BLS needs a GSA Mafia...I can so run it...I'm about half Sicilian...it's in my blood to form a freaking Mafia! :lol: :P Kidding. :P Oh, and when I was upset Jenna was there for me and so was my mom and all my friends from GSA...which is probably why I got over things so quickly. :D I'm lucky to have a strong support group...between my mom, my girlfriend, and the GSA...that's a lot of support. :D Oh, and I will say one thing though. One of my friends from GSA who is transgender was talking with me on the train ride home and asked me what made me question the fact that I might be transgender and not just a tomboy and a lesbian. I told her everything andshe said that she can't be sure but I fall under a lot of the criteria of being a transgender...(sexual preference has nothing to do with it...but if I were transgender I'd technically be straight)...I like dressing up and looking like the opposite gender...I do sometimes like identifying myself with the opposite gender...things would be so much more enjoyable...and there is some stuff that I wanna do that I can't do in a female's body. So...yeah...thinking about it...the possibility is kinda sorta high...I haveta make time to do some reading and more experimenting and then I'd probably know for sure. :D Although...I don't think that I'd change over until I went to college...doing it in the middle of high school might not go too well...even though BLS is very accepting. But...I don't know that for sure yet...I guess this brings me to the state of being a lesbian at the momentand questioning whether or not I'm a transgender. Yeah...sorry about that surprise...but it's not really a surprise...you already knew about the thing with Dan. :P Anyways...let's get on with this blog... :P

Aside from that...my week was pretty good. :D :P Nothing special really happened...just busy with schoolwork...as usual. :P The term hasn't really started to pick up yet...things haven't really been stressful yet. :P I've mostly been busy with homework and mindless busy work. :P The only things are that I have an Italian monologue to present tomorrow and I'm gonna get assigned an art project for Latin Prose soon. :P I'm ready to present my Italian monologue. :D This weekend wasn't too special either. :P Jenna and I didn't really have any plans...Jenna was busy this weekend doing something that I forget and I've been coming up with ways to kill SS. :P So...yeah...I don't really have much to talk about aside from that issue with SS and the recent revelation that the possibility that I might be a transgender is higher than I thought. :P http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOVue-ubkvw&feature=relatedThis song has given me SO MANY ideas for how to kill SS! :twisted: :P Not really...it's just nice to fantasize about it sometimes. :twisted: :P MWAHAHAHAHA!!!!! :twisted: :P Vale. -MightyBFan25 (Alicia)