As the title states...today was epic! :D :P But...before I talk about what I've been up to today...I want you to listen to this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rvBBPnHA9BsI absolutely love this song and 3 is a good band with tons of potential but they just aren't hardcore enough for my liking...but I like this song because I like the rhythm of it and it's kinda angsty and heavier than all their other stuff. :P So...yeah...in my opinion this is the only good song 3 has...but...whatever...it's nonetheless a good power metal song. :D :P So...listen to it as you read this blog. :P I've had it stuck in my head all day. :P Now I guess I'll get on with this blog and talk about today. :P

Well...the morning was pretty normal and nothing special happened...I slept in until about 10 and then I woke up to watch the new My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic episode. :P Jenna and I had some plans for today since we haven't gone on a legit date in a while so later on I took a shower and got dressed and whatnot and met Jenna at her place so we could go on our date. :D :P We went to go see a movie and then go to a restaurant to get something to eat afterwards...and before we went back to Jenna's place to relax for a little while...we took this really nice walk through this area no one ever goes to anymore...it's the place where Jenna and I carved our names with a heart around them in this tower...oh...how cliche but still romantic in my opinion. :P Then we went back to Jenna's place and relaxed for a little while...we just spent the time in Jenna's room talking for a while and then I felt the need to tell Jenna two things that I wasn't sure if she already knew. First of all...I just wanted to tell her that I do watch p*rn from time to time (I know a lot of people do but...I still feel like it's something she should know.) and I was a little nervous that she'd be mad at me or something but...she wasn't mad at me at all...she just laughed and said: "Why are you being so serious telling me this?". :P Oh Zeus...Jenna's amazing...I'm so glad she was okay with that and she admitted that even though she doesn't do that as often as I do...she has watched that stuff from time to time. :P So...I guess we're both guilty of doing that and didn't mention anything during the about 10 months that we've been dating...hehe. :P And then there was one slightly more serious thing I wanted to tell her. I guess I should explain this to you myself so this calls for another paragraph... :P

Well...I've been thinking about things for a while and even though I am not at the point in my life where I can entirely rule out the possibility of being transgendered...I'm pretty sure that I'm not. Dan is a part of me...but not in the way I thought originally. I did some reading and research recently and being transgendered basically means that you identify yourself with the opposite gender. Looking back...I was never a "normal" female...I was always kinda wierd...but I always identified myself as being a female. I don't really feel "trapped" in my body or anything like that...I'm fine with being a female...sometimes I think it would be much easier to be a dude and all the stuff that I do or my interests would be more socially acceptable...but...it's not a matter of things being easier or what you would like to do. If I could have chosen what gender to be when I was younger I would have chosen to be a guy and even today if I were presented with that choice I would have chosen to be a guy. But...it's not a choice...you either are transgendered or you're not...kinda like with being gay/lesbian. So...yeah. But...I do think there is one term that kinda applies to me. I'm not entirely sure of this yet but I think that I'm probably not transgendered but I am a transvestite. Don't get those terms mixed up. In case you don't know...a transvestite is someone who prefers to dress up as the opposite gender (applies to me...I dress up as the opposite gender unless I'm doing a declamation and haveta dress up somewhat girly)...andtwo other things that are sometimes the case with transvestites is that they like being percieved as the opposite gender (I LOVE it when peoples can't tell my gender and that happens from time to time...I think I freaked out some peoples when I met them for the first time. :P )...and finally...they have a tendency to assume the opposite gender's role ina relationship (Yeah...I think I'm guilty of that one as well. :P )...and honestly...that makes so much more sense and even though I'm not entirely sure of that right now...that does make more sense. :D :P So...yeah...anyways...with you knowing that...I told Jenna this...I was kinda nervous about telling her this because I had NO IDEA what her reaction would be but when I told her that she said it was perfectly fine and she was just glad that I could get some stuff cleared up and get some ease of mind on those matters. :D And...after I told Jenna those two things and we continued talking for a while...we kinda started making out...which was enjoyable. :P Some time after that we said goodbye to each other and I went back home and relaxed for a while and now I'm on this site making a blog and I'm probably gonna stay up kinda late tonight because I have some stuff I wanna do online before I go to bed. :P So...yeah...today was epic. :D :P

I have some stuff coming up in the near future that I'm very excited about...I'm really excited about Candlemas Day on Thursday...the Latin field trip on Monday...getting my new Timberland boots in the mail (they look so bad*ss...they're mostly black with a red midsole, collar, stitching, and laces and they just look so epicly Satanic! :twisted: :P )...two metal concerts coming up in MA...my one year anniversary with Jenna in March...and a ton of other stuff so I'm just really excited and have a ton of stuff to look forward to. :D :P So...yeah. :P I don't really have much else to say in this blog so I guess I should end it. :P -MightyBFan25 (Alicia)