Before I get to the title...I just wanna say that I absolutely love the word "confuzzled"...I'm not sure if it's a real world though...I don't think it is but if it is that's epis. :P It's just fun to say. :P Just say the word "confuzzled". :P Have you said it yet...? :P No...it's fine...I'll wait...take your time. :P Said it yet? :P You did? :P Awesome...wasn't it fun? :D :P No?! :P What the heck is wrong with you peoples?! :P Wait...sorry...I'm just talking to myself...I guess I'm mentally unstable or something... :lol: :P I already knew that though...so that's just insanely helpful. :P Well...anyways...I guess I'll get on with this blog. :P

I decided that the blog party shall be Blog #370...sorry for changing around things so much...but I'm just wicked bad at planning stuff like this...I kinda forgot that one of my friends on this site is having a blog party at the moment and I don't want to overlap things so...I'm just trying to be a good friend. :P But...I guess I'm coming off as being a jerk for changing around things twice. :P I'm sorry...you can beat me up whenever you wanna. :P Here...I'll do some work for you... :P *takes off my glasses and punches myself in the face* Do you feel better now? :P I hope so...I needs to go to the freaking hospital now... :P I'm so stupid... :P Kidding. :P

Ooh...watch this music video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49ZJqqrr6jkI was gonna post a link for another one but it's full of Satanic stuff so I figured it might offend some peoples on this site so I decided to post the link for this music video. :P The video itself isn't that cool...I mean...there's lots of headbanging and the girl in the white dress walking through the "forest" is really cute...but...aside from that the graphics aren't that great and and snow is obviously fake. :P But...whatever...the song itself is freaking epic and you gets to see Dani before he cut his hair and stopped using all the heavy makeup...so...basically before Darkly, Darkly Venus Aversa. :P So...yeah. :P NOW let's get on with this blog... :P

Today aside from spending some time with Jenna I didn't really do anything too special...I got up and took a shower and whatnot...and then I went online and checked my email and blogs and played a little UR while blaring Cradle of Filth music. :P Later on I got a call from one of those girls fron GSA who started dating another girl and Jenna and I planned on going on a double date with them to help them out. :P Anyways..apparently they're going on the date Friday afternoon...probably around 5...which is a pretty good time for a date. :D :P So...yeah...I'm gonna be gone pretty much all day after 5. :P And I guess I shouldn't say "all day" since after 5 I'd only be awake for a few more hours... :P Anyways...after that I called Jenna to fill her in which was a fail since Jenna already got the call a few minutes ago. :P But...anyways...Jenna said that since I had bothered to call we might as well talk for a little while...so we talked for a little while and then after some time Jenna asked me if I wanted to come over her place so we could do something. :P My response was that I'd love to...and then Jenna said not to wear anything nice over there and to bring a spare change of clothes. :P Why? :P At the time I didn't know...I lack common sense and honestly...I can't see the future...this was a hard thing to figure out anyways. :P So...I went over to Jenna's place...I took her advice and brought a spare change of clothes and wore some clothes that I would normally wear if I were going to play in the mud. :P I walked into the house and Jenna said that she called her parents a few minutes ago and asked them something. :P What? :P Jenna told me that she asked her parents if she could make a mudpit in the backyard basically...and her parents didn't completely love the idea of it but they weren't against it either so they said it was fine. :P And apparently Jenna wanted me to come over to help her with that...which is why she suggested I not dress up nicely and I bring a spare change of clothes. :P So...I obviously helped her...it was kinda hard to dig up the backyard...but I managed to make a mudpit in my backyard by myself...and it was nice outside today...which made it not that bad. :P So...yeah...it took some time but after the part of the backyard was dug up it was easy...just take the garden hose and spray the ground. :P Oh, and apparently Jenna's family has some lawn furniture that they never use for anything and they have a tent like thing that would be used to shade you if you wanted to like eat outside but it was really sunny or something...but...since they never use it for anything...we figured it would be nice to cover up the mudpit. :P Honestly...I haveta say I'm a little jealous...the mudpit in Jenna's backyard is really nice in my opinion...how do I know this? :P Well...I made it and I'll get to why else... :P Well...after the mudpit was done Jenna kissed me and said thanks for helping her with that. :P And then she said that we should test it out (this is where I begin to get confuzzled... :P ) and obviously I agreed (any excuse to play in the mud will do. :P )...and we ended up playing in the mud and making out (4th time now...not that I'm counting. :P But I'm confuzzled... :P ) and it was just really nice...and I'm not sure if I'm crazy or something but I don't think Jenna did that just for my sake...she seemed tolike it...but maybe I am just crazy...maybe I needs to be locked away... :P And this is how I know the mudpit was epic...I got to use it on the first day it was made...and honestly...(please don't call me a freak...I already think I'm a disgusting freak for thinking this...but I can't help it...I think it's a fetish or something) all mud feels nice...but that mud felt really nice in my opinion. :P(please don't kill me... :P ) So...anyways...after that Jenna and I got cleaned up and changed into some clean clothes and we kissed and she thanked me again for everything today...she actually called me about an hour ago to thank me again. :P After that I haven't really been up to much...just online...doing some stuff and now I'm making this blog...reflecting upon the day's events... :P Now I shall explain why I'm confuzzled... :P

Okay...I will say one thing before I go any further...I have always liked getting dirty...dunno why. :P And at first I would play in the mud to spite my mom who's a neatfreak...but now I have a pretty good relationship with my mom and I don't feel like playing in the mud to spite anyone...I just do it now because I enjoy it. :P And now call me a freak butI think it's a strange fetish of mine... Yeah... :P This is why if I weren't a lesbian I'd be going to the second circle of Hell. :lol: :P So...anyways...I remember over the Summer the first time Jenna and I ended up playing in the mud it was when Jenna was kinda tricking me to think that she was mad at me for "liking" Jessica after that whole Dan incident and she pushed me in the mud pit in my backyard but then kissed me and said it was a trick. :P Then we just kinda started laughing and making out and playing in the mud...it just kinda happened I guess... :P And after that we got cleaned up and whatnot and Jenna said that was disgusting and she'd never do that again ina million years. :P Then later on in the Summer she asked me if I wanted to play in the mud with her and I said yeah...so then we were playing in the mud and making out again...but that confuzzled me because she said she'd never do that again...apparently it was "disgusting"...and I asked her about that and she just kinda laughed...I thought it was just for my sake because she could see right through me and knew that I liked that the first time and she was just being nice. :P (Oh Zeus...my mind is in the freaking gutter right now...I really do deserve to go to the second circle of Hell... :P ) And then a little while ago in January we had this field trip to the Museum of Science and we didn't have any real homework that night so Jenna and I went to my place and I just kinda said out of nowhere that I wanted to play in the mud later today but Jenna said I didn't haveta wait if I didn't wanna...and then we ended up playing in the mud again...I thought it was just for my sake again...it was, right...? :P But today...a forth time?! :P I don't get it...if Jenna thinks that it's disgusting why did she want me to help her make a mudpit in her backyard...? :P And why was it her suggestion to play in the mud afterwards...? :P And...why did it seem like she liked it every time we did play in the mud...? :P This is where I'm getting confuzzled...I thought Jenna could just see right through me and knew I liked that and just did it for my sake...but this time...today...it couldn't be just for my sake...it makes no sense...I mean...not much in my life makes sense but still... :P But...if it wasn't for my sick and twisted sake...that means that Jenna likes playing in the mud and she said it was disgusting before and she'd never do it again in a million years... :P This is where I'm confuzzled...she said it was disgusting and would never do that again but then she ends up playing in the mud with me four times (all those times nothing had to happen...the first time Jenna didn't haveta push me in the mud...the second time Jenna didn't haveta even propose the idea...the third time Jenna coulda just ignored my ramblings...and the forth time...well...that was completely Jenna's idea... :P ) and wants me to help her make a mudpit in her backyard... :P I don't get it...I'm just really confuzzled...maybe I should talk to Jenna and see what's up with that... :P I have no clue but if Jenna does like playing in the mud that would make me feel much better...that she didn't just do that for my sick and twisted sake...and I guess it would give us something else to do if we get bored. :P But...no...that can't be the case...Jenna said it was disgusting and she's too good to stoop down to something like that...she's too good to stoop down to my level... I dunno...I'm just really confuzzled and I think I'm gonna talk to Jenna tomorrow...maybe before we leave to go on that double date with another lesbian couple... :P I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep too much tonight...maybe I can call Jenna instead...? :P No...it's already 9 at night where I live...I don't wanna bother her...I'll probably just pass out at like midnight...I'll just do some random stuff until I'm ready to pass out... :P So...yeah...sorry I've spent a lot of time talking about this but I didn't really do much else today and I'm just really confuzzled and wanna figure out what's up with Jenna...I'm not worried or anything...just kinda confused (I've been using confuzzled in place of this word but it's time for a change in vocabulary, don't you think? :P ) and it's just one of those things that I'm not gonna be able to get off my mind. :P Well...I guess I should end this blog...I should get to doing random stuff to get me tired so I'll pass out before 3 in the morning and I'll find out tomorrow...well...if Jenna wants to tell me anyways. :P But honestly...I'd hope that she feels comfortable talking to me about this kinda stuff...I am her girlfriend and I really can't judge anyone...I'm just completely messed up so if I were to judge anyone I'd be a total hypocrite. :P Arrivederci. -MightyBFan25 (Alicia)