I got a lot of little things to talk about. It would be a waste to write a lot about little things, though, as it is barely interesting enough to keep you hooked for more than 3 lines. So I cut them up in little snippets.

Let's see if you can follow my

Train of Thought

Lately I've dusted off my copy of Deftones' White Pony. This CD is great, probably even the best of recent times, even though it's about 5 years old now. Still, it's got emotion without the emo, it's got balls without sounding cheesy, and it takes me back to the times when I was younger and went to the pub for the first time in my life.

Before my musical taste became as ecclectic as it is now I was hugely into hard rock and metal. I still am, by the way, among other things. Still, there was a small pub devoted to this kind of music back in the day and I religiously went there at least twice a week. Whenever I hear a song from White Pony it takes me back to that pub. They played that CD a lot.

Funny thing Pauline told me, while being on the subject of that pub: When she first saw me there (she hung around that place too) she thought I was hot. At the same moment she thought I was way out of her league. I still laugh at the thought, because I know myself better than she did at that time, and I was by no means 'out of her league'. As you might've read in past entries, I used to be quite the nerd and I was just recovering from that period in my life back then.

But apparently I appear(ed) arrogant. While on one hand I don't really care about that, on the other hand I do think it scares people away from me, and I don't want that. I want to be liked. I'm a nice guy, but a lot of people are telling me that I have the 'Dontcha dare **** with me!' attitude. I sincerely believe this is not an image, but that it is really me, because this happens without me practising on my arrogant look. I'm just like that. Meh.

Just like that? Oh yes, cowbells. Jonathan, I do believe the original recording of Don't Fear The Reaper has cowbells in it. Well, maybe those are not cowbells, but it's a woodblock of some sort at least. Or was there an original recording before my original recording? I might have to check out the record store to make sure mine is indeed an original recording.

I also have to check out the gamestore, maybe tomorrow or else coming Saturday. Meteos will be coming out, and it'll be the first game I'm buying since a month or three. I also have an eye out for Castlevania and of course Advance Wars when it is hitting store shelves in a few weeks. A good month for my DS, my consoles are collecting dust, however.

So I play my DS in the train a lot. Today in the train a woman was sitting right across where I was, and she was constantly looking at me with this artificial smile. I was playing my DS so I didn't really pay attention, but every time I looked up I got the impression she was somehow digging me, it was THAT kind of smile. Now her age certainly had to be 50+ so you can guess I wasn't really interested. When more people entered out compartment she started to look at them as well with that stupid smile. It creeped me out and I was glad I could leave the train and leave her behind.

Also today: I was walking towards the university when a Chinese woman passed me by. She walked very fast, so I guess she was in a hurry. However, upon looking down at the water (we were on a bridge) she noticed a couple of ducks. Well, they were not ducks really, they were a little bit bigger than that, and somewhat smaller than geese. She immediately stopped walking and started to look at the ducks. She was completely captivated by their beauty, because they were beautiful, and the whole scene was somewhat peaceful. I walked on, and a few minutes later she caming running past me, in even more of a hurry than she initially was...

Then it occured to me that I'm not always enjoying the small things around me like I'm always pretending to be doing. I did notice the ducks and how peaceful the scene was and had plenty of time to just relax for a minute. Still, I decided to walk on. The little Chinese woman did not, she went out of her way to take a moment for herself. Surely it resulted in even more stress than before she had seen the ducks, but at least she's seen and enjoyed something simple and good. Strange how we often tend to overlook these kinds of things, and other people don't.

Well, that's about it. Hope you could follow it all. Share some tidbits of your life with the others while you're at it.