the freaking zoo.....

Why do ppl lower there self to do that?......hmmmm....maybe its a false hope like on that lil'sluger show

It is pointless nothing ever goes as I want it to.Some times I don't even think I should get out of bed because every thing I do will come back and bite me in the ass.No one cares that I'm gone but I saw that comming I'm only a liability......I getting of GS forever and this will be my last post,I mean its not like anyone really cares that I'm going or gone I'm just a nobody and thats all I'll ever be.

My life is so boring I can't do much anyway sence I'm only 13 *sigh* I can't wait ti'll I get a car and a cell phone......

The last few days have been crappy and it seems to me I need a life.I'm getting bored very easly now and soon I have to go back to school :(

God I had to spend time with that annoying ass Kelly.Thank God he'll be gone for another 2 weeks.Pools is back so I decided to annoy him didn't work to well he just kept saying "leave it to the profecoinals" Pools is so gay and dumb oh well I'll live for now.My sisters boyfriend bought her a TV the other day,I don't know why though not like she ever watchs TV anyway all she ever does is smock pot in her room.I hate having to live like this I almost never gat any attention and evry time my sister smocks weed the smell bruns the fuk out of my nose its like a knife cuts it off over and over again but who cares about me,no one does.If my mom really cares so much about me why doesn't she get rid of my fuking sister?Just another day in my crappy life filled with hate..........

God Dammit my mom did it again I'm getting sick of never getting to go to the movies my mom alwas says "we hav to wait until I get paid" or "I'll take you tomorrow" GOD DAMMIT! I swear my family is a Hell hole! My sister is now alwas fuking high and going down the same path as my father and what a great man he is! He is lonly and has no-body but his 100 and something dogs! Nothing goes my way ever! and when it does something bad alwas has to happon lik when my friend got to sleep over one day my sister came home drunk and puking! Puking for Gods sake! If I could I would pick another family to belong to!

My first day of using my journal for a real perpose.Today was quit fun I got to be a test subject for a thing that shows if you have MS,I learnd how to use it to though thats not what I'm going for school for.My sister is going out with her BF again,she smells like weed again......I learnd today that my mom might get fired because of this bycth at her work,I wish I could kill that person!

I might not be on for a while I fell very depressed right now and I've been felling this way for a week so I think I'll just sleep it off don't worry I'm not thinking about suicide (yet) but just to let you know I'll not be on for a while.

Seeing how I'm almost never here anymore and I hav no one to talk to or people to hang around I'm going to leave.I'll keep the piece of Sh!t you call a board.Well hav fun without out me!