Seeing Brian Ekbert go has reminded me that, for many years, I was serious about becoming a gaming journalist. Here I am, several years later, knee deep in an attempt to re-invent myself as a musician, and his post, which you can find here, touched on a couple of things that have been plaguing me of late. His past struggles to find employment are not unlike my own at the present. His attitude towards getting the kind of work he wanted is much like my own; I may give it a shot, but I don't honestly believe it could happen. What he did do differently, though, was that he kept pursuing his passion. What could I do? I don't play piano or sing well enough to contribute to a band yet, and I don't have any particular skillset that I could see being of use anywhere in the music industry. But...

It does bring out a nagging thought... could I be a professional videogame reviewer? Has my thinking and writing progressed enough to that point? I still love videogames with a deep passion, though my wallet has certainly circumvented me this year from playing that many of the 2010 crop. Would I love to write critiques on games? I would, but...

I remember impressing a lot of people for the skill I possessed for a "writer my age". But the years come and go, and before long, you're a soon-to-be twenty three year old who is still struggling to learn the rules of the university game, hasn't been paid a cent for anything he's written, and is a hodge-podge mix of scattered ideas, concepts and dreamings for comics, videogames, novels, poems and songs. I haven't written anything serious on videogames for at least a year, and I don't know what more to say about an industry that is stubbornly refusing to move past its own self-declared limitations to be the entertainment juggernaut it should be, but rather contents itself to sell to the same two major groups it's found out like their products.

I think it's time to start writing some reviews again. First up; The Beatles: Rock Band and Persona 3: FES. It's time to see where I've come to.

God knows if it's going to go anywhere this time.