oh...my..gosh was my first thought to this awesome episode of supernatural!!!!! {Spoilers for what is and what should never be ep 2:20}

this episode was so sad...i cried twice lol That djinn thing was freaky looking!! (greatjob makeup people!!) Ok, so the ep is basically about what Dean's life would have been if the fire never happened and their mum never died.. it didnt relli suprise me that dean had led a shady life...gambling, owed people money..but he had a GF! and she was so pretty!!

When dean goes to his childhood home his mother (Mary) answers the door...dean looked so shocked it was an aww moment right there!! after they greet he goes inside to find pics of him n sammy n mary n john growing up (sooo cute pics) and then mary tells dean that john died .. but from a stroke (another aww moment) DEAN MOWS THE LAWN! that was possibly the funiest thing i have ever ever seen...he looked so "white picket fence" it was weird...

after that Sam drives up in a rental car WITH JESSICA! (yay she's alive) and they talk for a bit and sam explains that he's going to be a lawyer and that he lives in california and only came up for Mary's birthday (which Dean forgot about/didnt know) they go out to dinner..dean see's this young,dead, woman (which he has been seeing for awhile now) and yeh

Deandecides to go bak to the placewhere the djinn attackedhim after he finds out that him n Sam dont talk, and arent close anymore, when he turns on the TV its the annerversiry of the plane crash that dean n sam had prevented (phantom traveller) dean looks up on theinternet and realises that all the people the winchestershad saved were all dead. he gets in the car andSam insists on coming with him, the get there and sam (has no idea how tob quiet) lol and theyalmost get caught. Dean realises that its just in his head& after some stalling sticks a knife in his heart. bck to reality Sam has found him and is trying to wake him up,he succeeds and pulls dean down. ofcourse the djinnpicks that moment to attack them, and after a short struggle dean kills it.

this part was the biggest aww moment in the whole ep (in my opinion) >>

"I know," Dean says before confessing, "But I wanted to stay. I wanted to stay so bad. I mean, ever since Dad...all I can think about is how much this job's cost us. We've lost so much. And we've sacrificed so much." The raw emotion and utter heartbreak on Dean's face is too much for Sam who argues, "But people are alive because of you. It's worth it, Dean. It is. It's not fair, and, you know, it hurts like hell, but it's worth it."

Dean lifts doubtful eyes and rests them on his brother. And the screen fades to black.

now for some pictures!! (i should hav made them smaller...but im lazy :) )

Dean waking up in the alternate universe.. ( squee no shirt)

Sam hanging up on dean cause he thinks he is drunk

Dean with his mum aww

family pictures... (i wonder if thats actually Jared in that pic... cause we all kno thats jensen)

Dean waving to a neighbour while MOWING THE LAWN (and yes that still cracks me up...lol)

Dean mowing the lawn ...priceless

Dean telling AU!sam to shut up or the djinn will find them oohh

Dean holding a knife, realising that if he kills himself he might wake up

Crying/teary!dean

Dean after waking up in the real world.. aww he looks so beaten up and drowsy :(

Sam listening to dean talking (see quote for what they r talking about)

Dean talking to Sam (see quote for what they r talking bout) another dose of teary/crying!dean :(