Was undecided about getting a PS5 as I love the 4 so my husband got me one just like that..!! I upgraded Horizon Forbidden West. The Witcher is broke because of update they released :(.

The difference is amazing..

I've just recently found out that my dad died last year. I know not much about the circumstances except that he died alone. Not been in touch with my dad since I moved over 20 years ago and lost contact with him. I kept contact with my dad a secret as he left my mum for another person when I was 12 and talking to him would have meant upsetting her.

I still thought about him over the years and often wondered what he was doing. It came as a bit of a shock when my brother let me know he'd had a letter from the solicitors inquiring about living descendants of my dad concerning his will. Obviously we're all going to die eventually and I have experienced grief through both sets of grandparents dying. This time it feels different. I get memories of my childhood popping in my head every now and then and it's really upsetting. They are good memories I think that's why it hurts so much.

I feel ashamed that he died alone and wish I could have been there for him. I'm getting teary eyed thinking about dad. I'm very much like him with my mannerisms and personality (so I've been told). Not sure how to deal with these feelings I have, especially when I go round to mum's. She has gotten her 'closure' (hate that word) and my brother was not a fan of my dad so much so that he changed his last name to my mother's maiden name as soon as he was able to.

My husband has ben really supportive, so has my cat in her own little way. Just feel pretty upset most days, I suppose it will get easier as time goes on. Now I know how my mum felt when her mum and dad passed.. :-{

Thanks for listening.

- J -

I was sort of relieved to hear that I suffer from chronic tension headaches and nerve damage although nobody seems to know why. After years of pain I'm taking amitriptyline at night before I go to bed. It's nice waking up and getting through a bit of the day without feeling like I can't move my neck or head and that my scalp is tingling and tight all day not to mention the clamp around my head and pain behind my eyeballs..!!

Can't seem to make it last past 2pm though. Taking four at night at the moment as well as all my epilepsy meds. Doc says I can go up to 7 if I need to, seems a bit much although they are only 10mg per tablet. Apparently it takes up to 8 weeks to stop feeling any pain at all. I'm patient I just hate it when they wear off and I crash..!!

Small health update..

Basically nothing has changed if anything it's worse nobody knows what's wrong with me. Dr's stumped.

Have new worsening symptoms i can't sit down as my insides hurt, not piles/hems or fissure, though do have blood. Got to point where i stand up most of the day as it's so god damn painful. Don't talk to anyone as it's my husband just says are you taking your meds. Thnks it's all in my head. Oh yeah losing all of my body fat and my hair is falling out too.

Shit if i felt any emotion at all i'd be REALLY depressed right now..!

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Finished Assassin's Creed Odyssey yesterday, will miss it soooooooooooo much.

Replaying Horizon Zero Dawn today.

Going to play until my eyeballs fall out..!!

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I have nothing wrong with my brain or eyes. After multiple tests i stopped wearing my glasses that are supposed to protect my eyes. Feels a bit better however still in pain all day under eyebrows and forehead.

Can't lift eyebrows without being in excruciating pain. Feel like i'm living a lie. Telling everyone i'm ok just not to rock the boat and have people say one step forward two back.. Leads to argument then threats of breaking up of marriage which i have invested 24 years in..

Feel nothing now. I'm a fucking numb robot..

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Been to see another Dr. Apparently he's not the right one for me. I feel like a bloody football. Nobody knows what is wrong with me and it keeps f"$%%ing changing. Now i can't touch my forehead or my eyelids without feeling pain. I'm stillllllll waiting for a head scan although i'm not sure what that will reveal. Knowing the NHS i'll be waiting till Xmas for that. Still no sign of pain relief. My epilepsy pain meds have stopped working. I'm a huge bundle of pain. Oh yeah and crying makes it hurt even more...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Went to see MSK people apparently she was just a physiotherapist so now i have to be referred to a specialist, i asked if this would take very long as i said i waited a whole month to see these people and my condition is getting worse. They replied no you should be seeing some one within a week. Also have a plan to help with moods as i feel upset or lethargic.

So i get a letter a few days later to say they are referring me to a specialist in one MONTHS time..!!!!!! and my so called plan is to go and see HEALTHY MINDS FOR POSSIBLE DEPRESSION and/or PSYCHOLOGICAL issues..!!!!!!!!!!

This i was not expecting. My husband went off on one. So did i. Fortunately we both had a laugh about it. Unfortunately i'm getting worse and i feel like i can no longer move my head/neck without being in pain. My eyeidss feel like needles are being driven into them also by eye sockets feel battered and my nerves feel like they are being pinched..!!!

Whatever next..??

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Well the month of waiting is almost up. On the 10th of September I go to see the MSK people muscular skeletal something or other..

We shall see what they have to say..

Tomorrow I go to the dentist for my new denture fittings. Got so stressed out I had a siezure and broke through the bottom denture of my implant.. oops....

New ones should be ready in week or two cost not sure.... ;)

Not been feeling great for past few months. My scalp feels tight as does the skin on my forehead and also all over my head down to the base of my hair line. My eyelids are bruised at the edges and at the corners look very sunken in. This are the top inner lids.

It feels worst first thing in the morning but I’m in pain with this all day it’s driving me up the wall.

I’m getting very depressed and lethargic I have no energy to do anything. Blood tests reveal nothing. Got special glasses to block out blue light. Eye drops make my eyes sting.

Going for tests at some muscle people but personally I think I’m at the wrong place had to wait a whole month to see them god more agony.

Only relief I get is when I lie Dow and sleep then I wake and it starts all over again that’s when I get depressed as I know what the day is going to bring.