Yeah, suprisingly enough I'm still alive. I read your comments and I kinda felt better. You lot pretty much supported me a lot. I can't say I'm now the happiest human on earth because I'm really not, I'm still heavily depressed but I'm trying my best to cover it up in front of my friends and family 'cause I know they're just going to ask me what's wrong then I'll be even more emo. I still can't talk about my problems, I know, it's my fault but I try.. But I don't know why, I just can't even though I really want to.. it's so hard.

But seriously, thanks to everyone here.. I would've been really lost with out your incredible support.

It's my birthday tomorow and I'm gonna try to make the best out of it. I have a feeling that the special some one won't come so I asked my friend do get more booze and keep extra supervision on me, I don't wanna run away again. I wanna get pissed like hell too, forget some crap and have a great time.

Again, thank you to all of you.