Right... this has nothing to do with gamespot or any of you lot. This is just me trying to let all my emotions out 'cause I got no where else to go to... Here goes...

AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH I can't bloody handle it anymore :cry: All this pain!!!! It just keeps getting worse to every second that passes by!! I just want to bloody kill myself, peace!!!! Every day, I take a step closer to my veins! More blood, and more... blood blood friggen blood!!!! All I ever tried to do is to keep everyone happy, be there for them, but now I just want to runaway from all this. I'm too depressed to handle anymore of this. I can't talk to anyone about my problems 'cause no one even friggen cares or bothers. If they say there'll be there for me they'd just be like "believe in yourself" "be strong" "dont give up" WWWTTTTTFFFFFF I try everyday to keep this stupid smile on my god damn face yet it just feels like fading every hour that passes by. I'm a really difficult person to understand, I never talk about my problems even though I want to but wanna know why? CAUSE NO ONE EVEN BLOODY CARES!!! They dont encourage me to let myself speak about whats wrong when they clearly see me feeling down. They either stop talking to me or they just say oh just leave her, she seems upset.... but when I see them like that I friggen givwe them all the love and care I can... WWWHHHHAAATTTT TTTHHHEEEE FFFF************* AAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH

KILL ME ALREADY I CANT HANDLE ITTT ITS BEEN GOING ON FOR YEARSSSS I CANT HANDLE IT ANYMORRREEEEEEE

I cant fake it anymore.... theres only one person that made me know what happiness is.... yet im still forgetting what the heck it is.

I. Want. To. Die.