Man, the I had a dream that seriously bothered me last night. Everything was fine for 90% of the dream but towards the end, like that last few hours that I was sleep, stuff got really bad. For one, my cousin died. He's also one of my best ****in friends though he died eating some type of fish, mind u, this is all in the dream. That bothered me becuz, I hadn't thought about how I would feel if my cousin died b4 and I usually do that type of thing to prepare myself for the death of someone should it happen. Thats the first bad part, fortunately, he died from choking so somehow, he cough the food back up and returned to life, don't ask how, it was a dream.

The worst part about this dream was what happened next. My girlfriend died in it. I......well, that was unbearable. Even though it was a dream it seemed so real and while in the dream, I felt the need to call her family to see if maybe somebody was joking but they wouldn't talk to me, like they were afraid to break the news to me or something. I finally talked to another one of my friends, Derrick, and he told me the truth and confirmed a funeral date. I broke down after that, u can't imagine the shock I was in when I found out.

Still, some might say "It was just a nightmare, don't let it get to u," but thats just the thing. This is the first nightmare I've had since I was 12 or 13 and I'm 16 now. And still those two parts are the only things I remember about the dream. My hands are shaking from the fear of it and I don't get scared easily. Bad omen.:(

Maybe its due to the number of people dying lately. As some of u might know, my aunt died a little while back though I didn't really know her and just yesterday, my brother found out that his best friend from our childhood brother hadn't gotten shot and killed. I didn't really know or care about either person, except maybe my aunt. She was really my stepdad's aunt and I only met her twice but she was cool. The guy's brother was an ass to me when I was younger though so I didn't like him. I couldn't be expected to care right?

Maybe thats what caused the dream, maybe not. I just know, I'm a little worried.......