Well I set out today with three missions.Take care of my car checkup upon when my mom embedded "ten days" 30 thousand times into my head, Get this bump on my leg checked out, and to find this job thing at the local community college where they'd help with my resume.
Car: The only successful mission today. Every thing is good. Check engine light is still on but I know what the problem may be. The shop said it could be an engine misfire. I also have to get the wheel bearings fixed, that's why my car is shaky still, but they said to bring it in before the snow gets worse and they'll fix it. apparently it'll also fix the gas mileage I get on my car.
My Leg: about four days ago I noticed this really weird bump starting...well not it's getting infected and I just can't describe how ugly it is or how bad it hurts. I've been using Tea Tree Oil on it and it doesn't seem to be helping. I found a medical center, well they want $50 for the visit there..which I don't have, so they recommended quick care. I found that and they wanted $100. God It's so hard to find someone that will help an unemployed, uninsured person. I was given a list of free clinics though and the only one in my city is open only on Saturday. I guess I can hold out a few more days.
Community College thing: well I didn't know where to go to begin with and everywhere i went there was a line and I really didn't feel like waiting. I hadn't eaten yet either so I got probably the weirdest sandwich from the blimpies there. I got a Turkey and provalone with lettuce, black olives, pickles, and cucumber slices. Yeah I make weird sandwiches like that, but hey it was good.
What is your innermost desire?
You want to UNDERSTAND YOURSELF
There are so many things going on in your mind. You wonder what all of them mean, what you really want, who you really want to be with, etc. You question yourself often. You want to know who you really are, and you want to define yourself. This is a personal journey that most people experience. Keep doing what makes you feel good and what induces the least amount of anxiety and questions. Express yourself in every way possible. You don't need to define yourself, you just need to answer some important questions. It will all come in time.
