Well, going on for about 3 weeks now. I've been having dreams about my ex. There are generally simple. Its us getting together. We met at church, concert, her house and just talking. We sometimes she calls me or vice versa. This dream has been happening a lot. Its not normal. I rarely remeber my dreams but all these seem so clear. I just don't get why I'm having them. Its not like me. Bleh, oh well. Had more dreams. Seems these things just keep coming at me. They must mean something. Oh well. Time will tell if they have any signifince.

I got rejected from ICNE yeah I figured I would so thats that. Pretty simple. One more college to cross off my list of places to apply to eh. Always fun. I'll update tonight.

Well, I might be getting a job at best bu. I'll be having my second interview on tuesday, Yah. I'm excited. Went to a gears tourny today. I don't even play gears. I was just there to be entertaining. It was. I won one round. IT was 1v1 so it was pretty uneventful to be honest. It was just meh. One v one big deal no tactics or anything. IT was just shoot. I was just being loud and annoying.

volenteering has been going relatively well. Its kind of boring to be honest but I make due. I go there and feel good about myself. I hope to see Kirsten's mom just to say hello and see how she is doing haha. Pathetic maybe. I don't really care anymore. One day.

I tried going out with some other girls. I tried my friend Y and that made me fall flat on my face. I thought she had some interest in me we talk quite a bit but I guess I'm just a friend. Which is ok, I don't think things would have been good between us. We are just well different socially and the way we handle things. She is logical, so if you F up in life she will say its your fault if it was and doesn't matter how bad you are hurt. I'm more emotional and will comfort. So I think that would lead to a lot of conflict. But I tired. Thats all the matters to be honest.