I'm not doing so good. I've been spacing out sleeping excessively, I've lost a lot of motivation. I'm just in a rut. Then on top of all of that my friend gave me some rather bad news about his mom. She has been battling cancer for about 2 years now. So with that, she has had a low platelet count for some time. And its gotten so low they ahve to stop chemo, therefore cutting her life expectancey drastically. He told me weeks probably. Me and his mother and rather close. And I took this rather hard. Spending all yesterday in a rather quiet pissedoff state I barely spoke at all. Thankfully I didn;t run into Kirsten's mom at the hospital or else I would have probably broke down crying. Of course with all ths happening the one person I want to talk to is her... and since i can;t I started developing hate... A path of destruction for me. I've stopped that after I broke down mid night. Hopefully I'll get better.

As for my friend he has started going to counciliing to deal with this. So hopefully he is ok. He doesn't really talk about thing so there isn't much I can do.