Wel, its been about 72 hours since my last meal. Well, I've been drinking liquids as caloric intake. Each day has been a struggle, it has been clearly defined to me.

Day 1 - Patience - Hunger never settled in but it was a long day. Nine hour work day. I had been having a horrible week. But nothing out of the ordinary happened this day angry customers etc. But I just seemed calmer and a bit more relaxed. I felt like I could handle it. I was stronger. I could handle these things. It was better. I got home and relaxed for a bit. And then spent the night in meditation. It was a nice time. I began to see what was going on. I prayed for Kirsten, my brother, and for me. I feel better.

Day 2 - courage - Hunger is light, it comes and goes.My mom had asked me what I was fasting for quite some time. I never wanted to say. I got the courage to tell her. I still care about her. I was able to let out a lot of emotions that day. A lot things I kept inside. Not letting anyone close to me know. My mother was a bit shocked when I told her I cared, but I think she understands. I tried on to stay on the subject to long. I began to look to God for courage and guidance when dealing with my brother and Kirsten. I began to feel stronger and confident.

Day 3 - Perseverance - THunger is constant - Food has been tempting me for most of the day. Spending a good amount of the day sleep. Well not a good amount. A lot of it was me talking to GOd while I was in bed. I began dreaming. Different dreams. I dreamed of a fox. That I was scared of but it tried to get close to me and I pushed it away. I began to think about it. My brother which I am praying for dresses up as a fox. Yes he is a furry. I shouldn't push him away if he ever trys to reconnect. I may want to. It got me thinking. I've been salivating quite a bit. Ready to eat. Haha. Looking forward to seeing it. Spending more time with God and listening to sermons I see that I can withstand a lot. I'm able to handle more.That well, we are a team. God will give me the opportunities to work, and i Just have to seize the moment. So I know with my struggles God is working. He is working with her, he is working him, and he is working with me.

But in all honesty I'm ready to eat..One more hour!I have eaten and it feels good. With this event over with. I feel satisified. Not knowing what to expect from it I feel like I've learned and gained a lot from it. God bless