I've figured out why I am why I am. I depend too much on others and can't stand my own two feet. I'm a weak individual, I've developed survival tactics that rely on others to pull me through. Instead of having faith in my self I look to others to get me through. I'm gonna try to rid myself of this. I don't need others. I'm not gonna to take this to an extreme , I'm just in a massive personal reflection state so I'm looking at my self. Finding out what is wrong. Why I am why I am. Its a good process but its not answering much for me, thats ok. We shall see how it goes.