Overall I'm doing good. Today has been a bit of relapse. I guess I'm just more worried about never talking to her again. Its been awhile I miss her voice. Haha, I'm pathetic. But thats nether here nor there. I've moved on I think. Who knows I've given it up to God. Its a big step for me. Its been a big growing process already and that I am grateful.

Well, I messaged her, she seemed really distant from me. Not even in a friends way. I can tell she is struggling. Poor thing.