So it seems its been awhile. to be honest not much has changed for me. I'm still pretty much in the same spot I left off. Except I think I've turned really negative towards life. And the things i say to friends, they laugh at and I try to make it like a joke but I often find myself wondering if I really mean the things i say? I'm not sure but the things seem to be a more common occurance. Oh well.

My job is rather frustating. Its a job, and customers are well retarded and i already hate them. haha. Most are nice but some are just nagging me all the time. Oh well.

I've been having some really vivid dreams. Yeah they have her. I can't remeber having dreams this vivid before. I remeber a few lucid dreams but a dream this vivid never. I was there. I woke up asking myself did this just happen? Taking 5 minutes to get my bearing straight I realized it was just a dream. A dream was all it was. I laid back down and staired at the clock for 10 more minutes thinking about what just happened then went to school.

I'm going to the local JC now. Needless to say I hate that also. Seeing a common trend? Yeah, its like high school. Its all trends and what not. Its weird, I don't think I'll ever adjust or really make any friends there but then again I'm not really the social type never was. Not that I mind.

My friend bought a ps3, and his roommate rented mgs4. so I gotta beat that by wensday. I think I can do it. I put in about 2 hours today. Not bad eh? Its more action packed that I would like but thats ok. Its very solid gameplay.

Well, I'm off I got more to post tomorrow.

Ok back, Civilizations Revolution has been taking up a lot of time. Haha, its distracting as I stop the game but still try to figure out my overall stradgey of the game to achieve victory. Its tough but fun.

Been a mix of emotions today, but I've evened things out a lot. I stopped breathed and worked accordingly and prayed. Its evened me out a lot that I've started to get work done. I'm very happy with it. Ok back to apps I'll be back to post more.

I've been waking up feeling confused and distraught. I feel like something is happening my sleep that I just can't remeber but its affecting me in strange ways. It takes me about 3-4 hours to sort through it all, generally a bit of meditation a shower and some distrations but I get over it eventually and get on with my day. I haven't really had this problem before. maybe its my dreams, I often find me self having them more and more frequently. Remebering my dreams seems to be a new experience for me. I use to never remeber. But up until the last year or so its been happening. Within the past few months its a common occurrence. Can't say I like it, but thats anotehr story all together.

I'll post more in this blog is later.