Well, there isn't much variety in my life to be honest. I just kind of go through each day and I don't even really look forward to anything. But the same ol same ol. Work school there isn't much variety in my life. Around 4 o clock, I play games with my brother, and we just got gears. Its fun but anyways. I don't really have much to look forward to. Every night I lie awake for about an hour and think about life. I think about where I am going. I miss Kirsten so much. I pray for her every night. *sigh* I want to talk to her. But I can't. Most days I struggle to get out of bed, and I just sleep a lot. I have no drive to excel anymore. Is it because I am in a rut I donno. Going out with groups makes me just feel weird. So with that. I donno where to go. I look forward and I'm gaining back my optimism. But it seems I have just lost my interest in dating. Its just there. I look at girls but I just don't seem to care about it. I donno, all girls I have taken an interest in, either have bf's or something. There is always something blocking me. yeah it sucks, anywys I get to go to church tomorow for the first time in a long time. I'm excited for it.