Well, I've turned myself around 100% from being a pissed hateful person. A lot has happened in a few short days, and I must say I feel a lot better. I'm at a stand still and thats ok. I'm not ready to put myself on the market and I'm not chasing after her. I'm just standing still while I finish school. Odd thing, I was being very hateful towards her in my mind, got to church and it was about hte commandment of Jesus to love one another. I was like :O . It hit me like a ton a bricks. He said. To love others no matter how much pain it brings. It was just like wow. Right message right time. Was it God, I think so. So thats that. Pretty powerful, to me at least.