1780, FTW~! I'm smarter than that! My grammar naziism failed me, and I ended a sentence with a preposition, but come on! I aimed for a 2000, this is pathetic! I'm taking them again, I will have my retribution for this!

Ahh, I feel better today. I don't know if it will last, or if I'm only fooling myself, but for at least now, I've found my self-confidence. I was always trying so hard to fit in that people started to feel threatened by my abilities, and pushed me away. I tried so hard to fit in that I wasn't myself also. I thought I was being smart by not being myself, untrue... Recently, well, it's been a while now, but still, I have found people who like me for who I am. TRUE friends, and that's made me happy... but, I still had those social boundaries on me. I tried too hard to fit in, and that caused me to not fit in, then after that, I gave up on it, because if I couldn't succeed when I was trying my best, how could I make friends by just being plain old me? Yeah, that was a lesson learned the hard way. I then distanced myself away, and stopped trying, which puts a wall between myself and new people who haven't met me. I've slowly been tearing apart at these boundaries, but I still lacked one key element in... charisma. Self-confidence. I think part of why I tried so hard was because I wanted someone to believe in my abilities. I wasn't praised much as a child, and am not now, so I had nobody to tell me "good job!" or "well done!" I grew up with a father who was taught that doing the job right was to be expected, and merited no praise. I'll admit it, I'm a fragile guy. Not in body, but in heart. I get hurt easily, so I shut myself away, and formed a pensive barrier, where it's like I'm half-asleep when I talk to people, and I don't really interact with anything around me. I've tried to break that down, but it makes me look like an insensitive, unemotional person. Even with that almost gone, the damage I've dealt is severe. A good deal of people see me as that person I hid myself behind, and as such, are uninterested in the real me. There's little I could do about it, aside from forcing them to talk with me, which creates an unsettling tension and irritation, because the two people aren't talking naturally, it's a forced conversation, and it feels that way. I suppose this all seems sad, but I won't lose sight of the fact that I've made improvements. I'll second something I've said, and something Joel's said, I said, "If you don't like something about yourself, then you should change it!" I've followed my own words, and Joel said, "I have the best friends in the world, no, seriously, I've looked!" I'll second that as well. If anything, how could I be sad when I have such great friends? After all, without the constant support, I'd still be hiding away, secluding myself in a sickening apathetic existance. I refuse to let myself be alone again, it makes my weak heart even weaker... yet, I find an increased strength because of the bond I have with my friends. Hmm... on a closing note, maybe I should read these words anytime I lose my confidence... Well, sword and words are spelled with the same letters, Joel, we're very similar. You have your sword to help you continue fighting, and I have my words... but I hope neither of us forgets that we also have our wonderful friends, and eachother to be inspired by as well!

This is a three day weekend. I want to go over to Aaron's house, and play SSBM, Halo 2, and DDR. Thursday night: My mother decided it was time to do spring cleaning, so I couldn't go over, I didn't do any cleaning, by the way. Friday morning: Two of the three kids had doctor's appointments, so I had to watch the remaining one. Friday afternoon/night: My mother is "too tired" to watch all of the kids, so I'm stuck here, still not doing any spring cleaning. Saturday: My mother is gone, she went to a party, so it's me, my dad, and the three kids. Now, one's asleep, I have another, and my dad has my little brother, I just finished feeding mine, and all he's going to do is drink a bottle and lie there, so I ask dad if he can watch him so I can leave, of course not! I hate this... bored... bored... I found an awesome song! Bored... Ooh, flashlight! I'm ADD now!

I will win this duel, RAWR! Chuck Norris doesn't kill time. He annihilates it. Chuck Norris holds the Guinness World Record for eating badgers. Chuck Norris does not have to mow his lawn. He simply stares at the grass and dares it to grow. The first true moon landing occurred when Chuck Norris entered a long jump competition. Instead of saying "Friend" to open up the doors to the Mines of Moria, Gandalf could have simply just said "Chuck Norris". When Chuck Norris chops down a tree, he uses the wooden end of the axe. Chuck Norris can start a fire with an ice cube. When Chuck Norris visited the Vatican, he took the Pope's confession. Jesus's Birthday isn't December 25 but Chuck Norris once sent him a birthday card for that day, Jesus was too scared to tell Chuck the truth. Thats why we celebrate Christmas. Chuck Norris once leaned against a tower in Pisa, Italy. Chuck Norris' only pick up line is him snapping his fingers, pointing at a girl, and then pointing to his bulge. Chuck Norris gets it all the time. Chuck Norris once passed a kidney stone the size of a basketball. The stone is on display in Beaver Springs Pennsylvania, and is said to possess magical powers. Chuck Norris makes onions cry. If Chuck Norris sees his shadow on Groundhog Day, another species goes extinct. Chuck Norris is the reason the devil went down to Georgia and not Texas. Chuck Norris once ate all the potatoes in Ireland, causing the potato famine. Ever seen the Hulk cry? Chuck Norris has. Chuck Norris once roundhouse kicked a man into next week. He then roundhouse kicked himself into next week, so he could roundhouse the man another week forward. Chuck Norris' shadow looked at him funny one day so he roundhoused his shadow in the face. He no longer has a shadow. Chuck Norris was the first person to climb Mount Everest. Naked. Superman owns a pair of Chuck Norris pajamas. It is a myth that Cher and cockroaches can survive a nuclear holocaust. Only Chuck Norris' beard can. In WWII, Einstien and his colleague Chuck Norris were called upon to develop a weapon capable of mass destruction. They created two. One was the atom bomb. The other, the roundhouse kick. Sending Chuck Norris in to roundhouse kick everyone was much more enviromentally friendly, but in the end the government decided to use the atom bomb. When asked why, an official was quoted saying, "Our goal is to hurt Japan, not decimate it." Hearing this comment, Chuck Norris proceeded to roundhouse kick him into a new millenium. This official is known as Al Gore. While pruning Chuck Norris' beard, an idea was conceived by an unknown barber. Consequently, the birth of steel wool occurred. Chuck Norris made guns so people would have a fighting chance. Chuck Norris does not flex at 100%, if he did, his muscle mass would become so dense it would create it's own gravitational field similar to that of a black hole... Killing all living things in the universe, except himself. WWI? That never happened. It was Chuck Norris trying to prove to Cheech Marin that Germany was in fact stronger than France after a particularly disasterous game of Risk. When Chuck Norris is in a bad mood, it affects the tides. It is said you can't know someone until you walk a mile in their shoes. This means no one will ever know Chuck Norris because he'd kill you if you touch his shoes. Chuck Norris once flipped a coin, it still has not landed. Pretzels make Chuck Norris thirsty. Nonetheless, he continues to eat them. Chuck Norris' beard is wanted in seven states for murder. Chuck Norris once saw his reflection in the mirror and challenged himself to a deathmatch. This quandary caused the universe to implode. Chuck Norris once inhaled a seagull. Chuck Norris won a game of "Simon Says" against Simon. Chuck Norris hates midgets and is developing a special lower version of his roundhouse kick just for them. Chuck Norris has sold one clone of himself to each country in Europe, just in case the Germans ever decide to get crazy again. Chuck Norris goes SCUBA diving with a Ziploc bag and a bendy straw. Chuck Norris eats live barracudas. Chuck Norris didn't vote for Pedro. He deported him. And by deported Chuck means he roundhouse kicked him back to Mexico. In 1988 Chuck Norris walked into Hanna-Barbera studios armed with an AK-47 and held the writting team of Scooby-Doo hostage until they agreed never to use the character Scrappy-Doo in any of their cartoons ever again. Norris was awarded with the Congressional Medal of Honor for this act. Abraham Lincoln was assassinated by John Wilkes Booth. John Wilkes Booth was assassinated by Chuck Norris. If the cliche "You are what you eat" is true, then Chuck Norris is a combination of monster truck tires, Godzilla, and magma from the earth's most active volcanoes. Chuck Norris was originally chosen for the movie Armageddon, but in the end the producers went with Bruce Willis. Because in real life Chuck would have given the killer asteroid a roundhouse kick at the moment it posed any danger. Thus turning the 2.5 hour epic into a 10 minute after school special.

Okay, these are getting old, but I have to say, I enjoy them, probably too much. So, I'm ending this fad with a bang. The best of the best in this blog. Chuck Norris once had a near death experience. Needless to say, Death now refuses to come near him. Chuck Norris solved the Bermuda Triangle by using the Pythagorean Theorem. The Nile flows north because Chuck Norris told it to. Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down until he gets the information he wants. Chuck Norris was awarded the nobel peace prize, for letting so many people live. Never ask Chuck Norris to play a game of "Sorry!" It will only end in tears. Yours. At birth, Chuck Norris came out feet first so he could roundhouse kick the doctor in the face. Nobody delivers Chuck Norris but Chuck Norris Chuck Norris owns the greatest Poker Face of all-time. It helped him win the 1983 World Series of Poker despite him holding just a Joker, a Get out of Jail Free Monopoloy card, a 2 of clubs, 7 of spades and a green #4 card from the game UNO. Vin Diesel's hair is too afraid of Chuck Norris to grow. A kid once stole Chuck Norris' hat and ran into an apple orchard. Chuck Norris flew into such a rage that he accidentally invented apple sauce. Chuck Norris votes people off of the island by roundhouse kicking them into the ocean. When he is alone at night, Chuck Norris likes to wear slippers with bunnies on them. Real bunnies. Chuck Norris drives Optimus-Prime to work. Chuck Norris got a perfect score on his SAT's, simply by writing Chuck Norris for every answer. One day Chuck Norris was infact killed when he round house kicked someone in the face so hard that it shattered the universe. But in heaven, Chuck challenged God to an arm wrestling match. Chuck won, and the universe was reformed. Chuck Norris does not bleed red, because red is the color of communism. You can't get blood from a stone, the mere thought of this makes Chuck Norris laugh, so loud in fact that nearby stones bleed in fear. Chuck Norris opened Pandora's Box, looked at its contents, and then closed it. Chuck Norris played Russian Roulette with an AK-47 and won. Chuck Norris once bet NASA he could survive re-entry without a spacesuit. On July 19th, 1999, a naked Chuck Norris re-entered the earth's atmosphere, streaking over 14 states and reaching a temperature of 3000 degrees. An embarrassed NASA publically claimed it was a meteor, and still owes him a beer. Chuck Norris raised his IQ by eating gifted children. Chuck Norris created the world, then he gave it a roundhouse kick in the northern hemisphere and created continents. Chuck Norris wins the Oscar for Best Actor every year. However, he refuses to accept the trophy until Oscar grows a beard. Chuck Norris was camping once and needed to releive himself so he dug a hole. You might know it as the Grand Canyon. Okay, before God smites me for saying Chuck created us, I'm done. Glad I got this out of my system... watch me say all of these tomorrow. I'm such a loser...

Okay, I sit here and wait... for what? You all have jobs, band, homework, and other things I'm unaware of keeping you from good ol' freetime. I have... sleeping babies, which don't really keep me from my computer... It's nice to have free time, but I have way too much of it... I'm really bored. I have every game I could ever want to play, yet I keep coming back here, just waiting to converse with my friends. Problem, you're never here. I guess for now, I'll continue to post Chuck Norris GIF's having him generally pwning dictators. If any of you need help in homework, need someone to talk to to, a councillor, a guy to sing the Llama Song with, just message me. I promise I have the freetime for it. :p

10. If I take my shirt off really fast, I get static electricity in my hair. 9. I found the tongue twister, "We won by one run." 8. I can immitate almost any style of writing I see. 7. I can make a duck call by making a ring with my index finger and thumb, and blowing into my hand like it's a mouthpiece. 6. I think Pirates are cooler than ninjas, but think of myself as a ninja, thus proving that I'm not even cool in my own head. 5. I had a half of a friend at one point in my life. 4. I know Chuck Norris' weakness. 3. I can sneeze with a force of mach 1, which is about 160 MPH faster than the average sneeze. 2. I don't know how to blow my nose, I'm not kidding. 1. I had online fangirls, and Cody addressed me saying, "How do you kow they were girls?" I felt bad after this.

From the second school ended, this weekend has royally owned any other I've had. Zach's party was great, although I kind of isolated myself when they went to watch Chicken Little. Zach came and got me, and I had fun just hanging out with my friends. It actually works like that. The lightsaber duels were awesome, as expected. Aaron needs to eat carrots, he can't see in the dark at all. I should've been more open to humiliation and played DDR, but Colin and Zach were owning at it, so I just watched. Smash was probably the least eventful thing for me, next to Devin's pirate adventure, when that rolled around, it was time for me to hit the sack. Saturday was good, aside from the finishing of the party, it was seemingly mundane... except... AniMarth returned to FESS in the time of the party, and released FE1's patch, already 25% done. I love that emo kid! Anyway, I played that, after watching some Toonami, which I watch because I'm too lazy to download subs. Sunday: The day of the dreaded paper. OH NOES!!1 I'm glad I finished that. I procrastinated from 1 to 3, and did it from 3 to 6. I played FE1 for a bit, and ended up losing in the first chapter twice thanks to the RNG. I also picked up Knight Online, in waiting for Guild Wars. I got up to level 9, and found a crap load of rare items, including a stiletto +8, a crystal, and TWO High level +5 scroll things. I could sell all this and have 200k. Did I mention I'm level 9? Well, I have math homework to do tomorrow night, but everything for tomorrow is good to go. Huzzah for the English paper's end!

I now officially hate my Red days. Pre-Calculus INTO Prob. and Stats. 3 hours of math is just too much. If I didn't have color- I mean French class after it, I'd probably have to change my schedual. Well, at least it's not Math, Math, Physics, that would royally suck. Fear the wrath of my senior year, MUSIC APPRECIATION! Next year should be a lot better, even with AP English/Calculus/Physics, I'd still have mostly Social Studies and computer classes. all that and col- erm, French 4. Anyway, I feel like complaining about tonight's homework. Pre-Calculus ¬_¬, Probability and Statistics ⌐_⌐, and my English Paper -_-. I managed to get Prob. and Stats. done, I had a bit of trouble after 24 with Pre-Calc, and my English paper = Sunday night work, aren't I just an awesome little procrastinator? I'm going to play FE4, I can't take anymore work today. PARTY AT ZACH'S HOUSE!

School might be boring, but everything else is going great! I'm out of my gaming and mental ruts, I'm feeling better about who I am, and I'm going to have more fun on friday then I've had since SMYM-3. I find that my attitude seems to effect my mental keenness, strange as it may be, but my positive attitude is increasing my powers of mentality, and for the first time in a while, I don't care if I can fill my fathers shoes, I AM intelligent, regardless if he acknowledges it or not. I'm an idealist, maybe that's why people don't agree with me when I say "I'm going to be who I want to be, not who I am," but who I am Is slowly becoming who I want to be. I'm no saint, though I used to think those were the minimum standards. I tried way too hard to "win at life," but something like that just had no internal meaning for me, and also closed me off. I may not be as ideal as I am idealistic, as I still have little motivation to do schoolwork, but I think I'm going to be alright, and if not, I'll just leech off of my new friends. :P If you're not happy with yourself, why would you want to be yourself, that is my reasoning, and I am changing. It's actually because I changed in the first place that I was not happy, I think that this "change" truly is my reversion to my real self. Joel still wins the arguement... darn. Bonus points for the name of the character I quoted the title from.