Hmm, so I have my two week break going on and haven't done too much I wouldn't of done on a weekend. I've worked and chill'd with a friend then spent time with the GF a lot.

Man, I love her to death and it's going fine... But she scares me sometimes by how she talks or acts or says... I'm legitmly scared one night I won't be around when she gets into a super depressive mood and she'll end her life.

It takes a lot out of you having a GF with clinical depression. I won't even lie, it takes a toll at this age, and it's hard to keep up with it and give her all the attention she needs while looking out for yourself. But I'm strong and I beielve I can handle it. I know when she gets out of her household she'll be better off and hopefully well... better?

My life has been great I'd say latley... Good times with friends and the GF, I love working and bought gifts for pretty much everybody I need to. I'm more excited about giving this year compared to recieving! :o

School has been rough though, calculus is honestly killing me and everything is going into one ear and out the other. It's a hard course and I can't see how I'm going to be going onto university with what I have now... A victory lap I suppose? =
Sigh, that's one part of my life that turns my mood soruu... School is just not going how I need it to go, and I'm worried I'm going to be a failure.

It's not that I'm begliciting school work because I have a GF and friends or work... Sure that doesn't help but I could do it. It's the fact I can't bring myself to do anything realted to school... I can't study, brign myself to do assighments or homework. I just sit there, and push it all away. I procrastnate and don't care... I lack the motivation to do so.

God I hate myself when it comes to my future and schooling =(

Games.. games. Well, I bought COD: BO and I must say I'm surprised by how well done it is. It's presented in this beautiful way and really drive the story and makes you play it, I love the feeling and atomsphere of each campagin level.
The only problem is my PC... My proessor is a giant bottleneck and makes it virutally impossible to run the game over 30FPS. And my god, does that ever make me rage while I play the SP or MP >.>

I also bought that pulse indie steam pack awhile ago. The one with 5 music based games for $5? It's a great deal and I'll say I love the games packaged with. I just don't get The Polynomial or w.e... I tried it, seem'd very neat and cool but my god I don't understand what I'm supposed to do! It's cool to look at though ahaha.

I really want to get back into WoW for cata but I just don't have the money right now as I still have to pay for a few gifts and split in on with some... Then my phone bill >.>

Perhaps I'll make a nice after new years update how the break has went fully? I'm very excited to update abotu the rest of it!

Happy Holidays everyone! I wish you the best and hope you all have a great time! =)

So I haven't blogged in awhile btu that's because I never have much to blog about. But thigns have happend within a month, drama life issues and awesome new toy!

Let's start with all the good stuff:

• I turned 17 on tuesday
• I got a brand new phone a week ago and I must say it's one helluva a device!

*This phone is easily the highest tech phone available in Canada, only the Evo surpasses it.*

• Got a part-time job at Taco Bell and I must say I LOVE working fast food compared to retail... God, it's just so much exciting and fun.
• I also have a lovely girlfriend who I adore

Now let's get to the..... DRAMA

Three weeks ago or so I had a major issue with my girlfriend, she would snuggle and fall asleep with her best friend (Who is a girl, but my GF is a 5 on the kinsey scale so it was oh more so threatening). But that's not it, it's the SAME girl she was crazy for 2 years non-stop.

Kinsey Scale

*Yes I'm almost dating a lesbian... Wanna fight about it?*

So after I keeping that to myself for a bit confronted her with a letter threw a bestfriend (there wasn't much of a choice at that point, didn't want to ruin her thanksgiving). She completly understood, everything was good and we saw eye-to-eye and she has promised not to do that anymore.

So I have one week of goodness, being happy and etc. but then she starts to get into MAJOR drama with my two bestfriends at school. This put me in the worst position, I had to stay neutral and she was really taking it hard, it got worse and worse and worse.... And her mother beat her.

It boiled ever, she reached a very high depression point and was suacidal. This brings me up to last week. She told me she was going to be admitted to the psych hospital on Wednesday a day after my birthday. My bithday went great but I've still had that on the back of mind being depressed.

I woke up wednesday morning in tears. She was going to be admitted the day after as no beds were available. We hung out that night, I held her, she started to cry as did I... It's just been all so heart wrenching and it really hurts. I got up thrusday morning unable to get out of bed so I stayed home yet again from school.

In school I'm sinking pretty fast. I'm on the verge of failing a lot of my ****s and this year really matter. It's getting harder to tredge threw this all but I must... My furture depends on it. I need new work habitis, I need to try harder :(

My plans this weekend? Mope around, work tomorrow, mope some more and then go back to school Monday.

And vidya gamez... uhh, I got the PS Move and I must say this is solid tech and sports champion is a fantastic game to play with friends/family. Especially gladiator, my god I destroy everybody at it xD

I plan on buying Cod:BO with a internet buddie as I need some new gamez and it's shaping up to be a solid COD. Then I plan on getting Catc, LBP2 then KZ3. Maybe buy my older brothers computer. Not too sure.

I did beat Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep awhile ago.


*I could listen to Aqua's voice for hours on end... Terra's on the other hand? Not even 5 minutes.*

Solid game, defiantly AA worthy but my god the load times and such just take away a lot from it and the voice actingcan be terrrrible. Great gameplay, I really loved how they added making your own material and that story board (drawing a blank here forgive me). Loved the music and worlds and the entire level layout. Very fun game, recommended to all PSP owners.

Well that's all I have to say for now folks.... Thanks if anybody actually read all of this ahaha.

Jesus, I don't know where to start with my summer.. I guess the beginning will suffice. I pretty much just played WoW and talked on Skype with friends (some in rl, a couple from the sates they're god people) hung out with friends got drunk lived it. It was the summer I expected and wanted but things happen, they almost always do for me.

I hung out with my friends one time with this really nice girl I talked to off and on, she was a gamer into anime and such but has her fair share of baggage and issue, and I can somewhat relate my life is defiantly not the best. So Over the next couple weeks I'd talk to her, play WoW with her and hang out I loved all of it. But I started to gather feelings for her and the things just used to talk to about made it seem to me I was just a friend and it killed me, but I came to terms with it the following weeks.

While that was going on I was visiting Toronto (4 hours away) to see my Doctors (I had cancer, blah blah blah, long story medical **** I got bad news a chemical which can be used to determine kidney function (creatine) was really high, the highest it's ever been. My doctor decided to be aggressive and told em to be hooked up for direct drainage 24/7 I did just that for two weeks and my blood work came back worst, it went up again then no improvement. So my health is certainly not good right now, I'm due for a plan today actually form them because I don't know what's going to happen if this is not working. Possibly a tube coming out of my back for direct drainage of the kidney, I'll see....

But **** all of that, I'm too happy to care about it anymore. The girl I was talking about actually likes me, a lot. It's funny we both thought the other didn't like each other so it's funny how it all worked out but that's where I am. I dealt with my bestfriend about her and I think we have the green light, I'm going to be having my first GF (woot woot). I'm so happy I cannot sleep in anymore, if I wake up for a split second my mind races to her and I cannot fall back asleep which is kinda annoying but my mood is great.

Now for games uhh well, I'm going to cancel my subscription for WoW until catc comes out. I'm pretty much geared out and don't feel like dedicating 4hours+ for a single raid. Instead I've been playing EQ2 since it became F2P with friends, one of them is REALLY addicted and going too fast while my other ones need to catch up, it's lulz. I still need to beat borderlands and some PSP games I'll get those done eventually. I'm SUPER excited for Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep in a week or so, possibly my most look forwarded game this year or LBP2/RB3.

Music, I recently downloaded Usher from a suggestion of a fellow GS'er (sanim very good album) but right now i'm listenign to this lovely songs and stuff... ahahaa. I'm not sure if you might know this song but she really loves the lyrics and I've always found it to be a amazing song "Calling You - Blue October" . I'm lookign forward to the release of "A Thousand Suns by Linkin Park" and "Flamingo by Brandon Flowers" two of my faveourite bands (well, brandon part of it). They should be good.

Anyways, that's about all I gotta say for now, happy posting/reading Game Spotters! :D

Summer is more than half way done and I feel as if I should really go out there and do something but things just lien up badly for me. I was supposed to go camping for a couple days but my mom had surgery... Best week of my life without my friends heh.

I haven't done much this summer I wouldn't do on the weekend during the school year; hang out with friends, talk on skype, play some WoW and lurk/post on GS. I know, it sounds o, so exciting :P.

One thing I enjoy is I've gotten closer with a friend of sort, hell I'd love to move it to the next level but after just about a week of talking and casually dropping some hints here and there it is blatantly obvious I'm in the fried zone which happens to me too much, hell it happened around this time last year as well... I've come to terms with it but damn it's hard not to have feelings for her and want something more but it probably won't happen :(..... Dem womenz being complicated and such.

*Here's a picture that suits this situation xD*


O, I recently joined a union (Don't believe the HYPE) which is a refreshing compared to just SW/OT and especially the Skype, the skype is a goddamn blast haha... I'm looking forward to being active in that for awhile to come and hopefully I'm fitting in just fine.

But my summer isn't without bad news. My mother lost her job this June so money has been pretty sparse but thankfully I had a job... Today I was officially let go, I saw it and knew it was coming there simply "wasn't enough hours" but I'm promised a seasonal hiring around the holidays so it gives me a good chance to just focus on school when it comes around I guess.

As for any gaming news well, I play WoW a bit? I have alright gear nothing too special I'd love to down LK but I don't dedicate enough time to WoW.. I go on and play when I can and get off.

That's about all I have to talk about it seems, happy reading!

Well, I'm new to blogging so what exactly do you do? I don't know I think you just talk about life right.... what's on your mind and whats goign on? So I guess that's when I will do.

What can I say, I'm in Highschool which is pretty tough and the one of the best in my province so it can be challenge. Only thing I can't seem to grasp is Physics as well with half of the other students.... But th at's enough about academics, what fun is just talking about school? :P

I'm worried about getting my wisdom teeth out this Wednesday. Less about them getting out I've been though worse but more-so the bill my parents are going to have to pay. My brother and I are doing it the same day and their insurance will only pay out $1500 a year max for dental. We went though almost $600 with just our local dentist then this. So they're going to need to give out 1k each for us, which I feel bad for.

Had a job interview today, it was good I thought but they way she put it seem'd like not to get my hopes up. But I really need this seeing as how I'm 16 and I have no source of income.

So this is my first blog.. Am i doing this right? I'll continue if anyone has a interest.