Hmm, so I have my two week break going on and haven't done too much I wouldn't of done on a weekend. I've worked and chill'd with a friend then spent time with the GF a lot.
Man, I love her to death and it's going fine... But she scares me sometimes by how she talks or acts or says... I'm legitmly scared one night I won't be around when she gets into a super depressive mood and she'll end her life.
It takes a lot out of you having a GF with clinical depression. I won't even lie, it takes a toll at this age, and it's hard to keep up with it and give her all the attention she needs while looking out for yourself. But I'm strong and I beielve I can handle it. I know when she gets out of her household she'll be better off and hopefully well... better?
My life has been great I'd say latley... Good times with friends and the GF, I love working and bought gifts for pretty much everybody I need to. I'm more excited about giving this year compared to recieving! :o
School has been rough though, calculus is honestly killing me and everything is going into one ear and out the other. It's a hard course and I can't see how I'm going to be going onto university with what I have now... A victory lap I suppose? =
Sigh, that's one part of my life that turns my mood soruu... School is just not going how I need it to go, and I'm worried I'm going to be a failure.
It's not that I'm begliciting school work because I have a GF and friends or work... Sure that doesn't help but I could do it. It's the fact I can't bring myself to do anything realted to school... I can't study, brign myself to do assighments or homework. I just sit there, and push it all away. I procrastnate and don't care... I lack the motivation to do so.
God I hate myself when it comes to my future and schooling =(
Games.. games. Well, I bought COD: BO and I must say I'm surprised by how well done it is. It's presented in this beautiful way and really drive the story and makes you play it, I love the feeling and atomsphere of each campagin level.
The only problem is my PC... My proessor is a giant bottleneck and makes it virutally impossible to run the game over 30FPS. And my god, does that ever make me rage while I play the SP or MP >.>
I also bought that pulse indie steam pack awhile ago. The one with 5 music based games for $5? It's a great deal and I'll say I love the games packaged with. I just don't get The Polynomial or w.e... I tried it, seem'd very neat and cool but my god I don't understand what I'm supposed to do! It's cool to look at though ahaha.
I really want to get back into WoW for cata but I just don't have the money right now as I still have to pay for a few gifts and split in on with some... Then my phone bill >.>
Perhaps I'll make a nice after new years update how the break has went fully? I'm very excited to update abotu the rest of it!
Happy Holidays everyone! I wish you the best and hope you all have a great time! =)