When at work, rock out, but not with your cock out. Work hard and smart, unless you absolutely suck ass, you should succeed.

Return all phone calls no matter how unimportant they seem. Today's nobody can turn out to be tomorrow's Diddy and he'll remember who was an ass and who was cool.

When with a lady friend, treat her kind and don't be a thirstburger and eventually she'll want you to **** her out her mind. You'll know when she's rocking her knees and there's an awkward silence. This means do something, homey. I usually just take it out on them and that does the trick. This could backfire on some dudes. You guys know who you are. Keep the 5 incher in your pants till the very last minute.

When haters try to diss, brush that **** off your shoulder. When they come back to diss, offer them the condescending smirk. This in itself is an art and it pisses them off. Until you master the smirk, just stare at them like if they're a retarded person who is amusing you.

Now when the haters come within one foot of your personal space in aggression, grab the back of their head and bring it down to your upcoming right knee in full force. Then hit them across their temple with your right elbow and follow with the left. Finish with a left knee to the grill. If this doesn't disable homey, it's very important that you run as fast as you can.

That's all the wisdom I have for today. Thank you. Have a great weekend.

This realization hurts just as bad as anything I've felt in a long time. I feel like I must give up most everything to get where I want to be in my life. It really shouldn't feel like this, but for some reason it does...

I don't want to be like the rest of you. Not to be condescending (not on purpose anyway), but that really is how I feel. I don't want the difference between the rest of the world and myself to be the way I wear my jeans or that funny little thing I do when whatever happens. I want it to be in my name. I want it to be in my work. I want it to be something more.

Wow. That really looks horrible typed out. I feel bad but do not apologize. The fact is that I feel like I am falling short of my goals in life and I really can't take it anymore. I've crept my way through school, making excuses and taking the long way around the mountain while people who started after me have gone on to what fulfills them. I can't take that. Not at all.

I started writing this because doing that helps me figure out what is going on inside my head. I think it should stay and I think I will post it... for me.