Okay, I guess you could say I'm feeling pretty lonely and useless right now, but I know I just wanna throw a pity part for myself. Ain't they great? Well, I am also aware I'm supposed to be doing homework that I should've finished a week ago, but I was doin' the easy stuff which included an a Teenbiz3000 article about MySpace and a Japanese social network called Mixi. The Teenbiz people tried to make it look like the author wrote the article to compare and contrast the two, but that's not the vibe I was getting. So I got a little angry, that message that said I haven't gotten into "the whole blogging thing...yet," was lookin' at me, so I decided to sort of talk about it I guess. Or rant. I don't like to use that word.

Anyways, the article talked about how MySpace is so self-absorbed, all about, me, me, me, whilst this Mixi site is about socializing inside the Japanese culture. MySpace = Me. Mixi = Us. Now, I absolutely despise MySpace. Cannot stand it one bit. I mean, with all the things that go on there, just, no. I figure I'm no mouth to talk about this considering I'm extremely fickle about socializing, but yeah, I do like to talk to people sometimes. Hey, my family and I were forced to run away to an island. There just aren't any non-backstabbers around here to be friends with, so what else am I supposed to resort to? I like talking about my day, and listening to other people's, and telling stories that relate to each day. Does that make me so self absorbed?

I am extremely annoyed I cannot find my book that holds the term for this, but believe me there is a term. It is, the need to share one's life with others, and it's completely natural. Think about it. If you were confined, and there was absolutely no way to communicate to others what was going on in your life, or how you felt, wouldn't that drive you crazy? Thinking back a bit I think it almost drove me there. Two or three years ago actually. You don't need to hear about that, but I went pretty nutzo I gotta say.

Basically, the people on the internet helped me pull myself together, and now I can talk to people on here like I would anyone else. How's that for phenomenal? Leave a baby alone without care, and it will die. Don't get me wrong when I say this, I'm not trying to put Japan down, but just look at all the suicides over there! There may be a lot of factors to each case, but heres one: The Japanese don't show emotion. It's practically against their culture and ancient ways. I've really loved how they're so polite, but all of those emotional things they create (I think) are a shadow of what they've always wanted to be. Granted, there are those rebells, but don't they seem a lot happier?

Call it exploitive, dumb, stupid, whatever, but do not call it "self-absorbed." Just because the Japanese respect their culture to extremes, doesn't mean the social networking of America is bad compared to it! Yeah yeah, pity parties are for fools and vain idiots, but really, doesn't throwing one feel good? Even if it's only once? You've hit a crisis in your life and no one is around, wouldn't you like someone to say, "Oh no," and feel your pain for a bit? Maybe you want solutions, and words of care saying it's alright. I guess you can say, "No, I can live by myself just fine," and well yeah, I think that a lot to myself too. Come on though. If I could really live by myself at the moment and be totally happy, just why am I here? Just the same if you could live without the community here, what about that/those awesome person/people you tell everything to? I don't know if this applies to everyone, but I haven't met a person yet who can live otherwise. Simply because people like sharing their thoughts, are they really that egocentric?