This is really hard for me to say, and i dont think i could ever say it to anyone, face to face. The thing is, I really hate my life and I dont know why. Iv get the best of everything, but I feel empty and lonely. I hate myself for hating myself (If that makes sense), because I really wish that i didnt think that. I need to escape. You have no idea how hard it is to say this, this would literally be the 15th time ive written a blog like this and immediantly deleted it all. I hope you guys dont take offence to anything I said above, and im sorry for everything, you guys are seriously awesome. Thanks