Will Wednesday at 5pm my Great-Grandmother died. It was to be expected because she was so old. 86 if you really want to know.If everyone keeps asking me if im alright i will SCREAM.

    Then they tell me i must be the strong one because i wasn't crying. Some gave me a dirty look. I just had to :roll: , because i would have snaped. I really didn't know her (Great Grandmother im talkin about). She lived with me for the past 2 years but still i really didn't know her.

   PLUS when i use to talk to her she would say hateful things to be, like "Look how fat you have gotten now", or "I look just like your mother and will turn out to be like the sl**, because you know the apple doesn't fall to far from the tree." I hated when she would compare me to my mother, knowing i HATED her. Yes i do hate her, but that a hole other story.

    It wasn't just me she would say hateful things to. She said it to all of her great grand-children, expect her 2 gifts from god, great grand children, my other cousins. They were treated like GODS. Believe me everyone in my family saw it 2.

   But she wasn't all bad. She did send me money once in a while. And she did pay for the new house i'm about to move into.

   I'm not going 2 her Funeral. I hate them. It's just a feelin i get when i get in a church that makes me sick. I know i'm going to hear from all of those other loud mouth relatives on how rude i was on not going. But my grandmother and talked and she said i don't have to go so i can say screw the rest off the who say any thing smart.   

Do you all think im wrong 4 not wanting to go to her funeral?