I have bought more games this month than the last 6 months combined. I just want to play everything for some reason. Truth be told, the last couple months especially have been sort of hard for me. I'm normally not the type of person to tell people these types of things, unless you're very close to me, because I'm super introverted. It probably hasn't hard to tell from a couple of my blog posts I had done before the new year that I wasn't feeling very cheerful. And that's usually not the person who I am. I'm typically a cheerful person. I used to be depressed all the time, then I started going to church and it helped me look at life in a different perspective. I learned to appreciate more.

The last couple months have been pressing on my mind though, and I think when I get down I spend money, which is a REALLY bad thing lol. This time I've been spending on games haha. I usually never spend until I get myself in a jam though. I'm more responsible than that. Anyway, for some other reason this month I've been obsessed with obtaining trophies for some reason. I normally don't give a crap about those either, which is weird, and last night I decided to get the trophies from the game Flower. I only have a couple left to get.

As I was playing, something about the combination of such beautiful music, and free flowing as the wind through amazing visuals, just really did something to me. I sat mesmerized, as if high on some type of drug, and felt for the first time in a while that everything was going to be okay. It's hard to explain the feeling I had, but it was like a blanket washed over me and took away my sorrow. I thought of the child my wife and I are going to have in a few months, and imagined myself sitting with him/her in my arms as we listened to this music together, feeling happy.

I have played through flower before and thought it was wonderful, but something about it last night really touched me. The man who composed the music for the game is a genius, the person who designed and created the game is a genius, and the team that put it together really made something special. I have never before in my life experienced a video game help put my mind at rest.

I am definitely buying the soundtrack for flower! I have always been a fan of instrumental music because I personally believe it holds the most feeling and expression. It's the best music to get really lost in. Like I said, I normally don't share my feelings with people because I don't like them knowing my thoughts, but nobody I know personally reads this blog, except for my best friend, so I can let it out this once. I just wanted to share the beautiful experience I had playing Flower.