Lately I have been hating the idea of christmas because people "pretend" to be nice to each other when 95% of people aren't really that nice at the time. I hate when people lie to me about their mood. And plus why does everyone have to buy crap from stores as christmas presents? there is not really that much thought put into it since someone else built that item and your just purchasing it from them to give to someone saying "I love you". Sure I may sound like a grinch but honestly stop and think for a change. After watching that episode of trailer park boys where ricky is in the church swearing and being blunt on stage with everyone it all clicked in my head and makes sense. In fact I am kinda planning on disappearing for the whole day without telling anyone to see one of my closest friends hopefully.

Also for christmas people have been harassing me nonestop what do you want and stuff and I usually respond "nothing" or "nothing you can afford or give me". This has been going on since mid october since my family likes to get this stuff out of the way which I understand. And one reason why I say nothing because if I do ask for something it would probably be game related and I am tired of asking for the same type of stuff. Apparenly a couple members already bought me stuff and wanted me to tell them ideas for rest of the family.

Another thing is my familys current financial situation so I told them I didn't want to celbrate christmas and didn't want no presents so they can save their money and I can save mine. Unfortuntly they already bought me stuff so I asked them what they wanted in return since I don't want to be greedy. So I purchased the crap they wanted and told them they can't touch it till christmas. So hopefully that will save me time and some trees beingtransformed into crappy wrapping paper.

Then the other night I get a e-mail from one of my friends and she goes on how she does not want any commerical gifts only stuff made by you if its a simple drawing or something else built specfically for her. And I am like I agree someone else is finally sharing how I view christmas and getting tired of being bought commerical items all the time. She then says she told her family if they can't do that then make donations in her name to some wildlife fund and let her know. If not she doesn't want anything.

So this had me thinking and I was like she has a good point. So the next day I basically go up to people and say all I wanted for christmas was people to make donations in my name to some worthwhile fund that helped animals or don't give me anything. Since I believe animals should be protected more then humans that is why I think money should be donated towards them. So I told mother to pass it along to whomever and at first she thought it was a joke untill I told her I won't speak with her about the subject what I want anymore since she knows now.

So if your still stuck on what to ask for then do what my one friend did and what I am doing now. Stop being greedy and think about others instead of yourself since I finally get it now. I have learnt so much and realized so much more in the past year without cable plugged into my TV then I ever did before. I dare you to tell everyone that is still asking or stuck on what to get you this "make a donation to ______ fund under my name or don't get m nothing".

Whoever else does this I want to know.