I guess you can consider this a continuation from my last blog even though when I wrote that one i didn't intend to write about this. Anyways I've gotten to a point where I still love video games but that I don't want to love it as much as I do. I have A LOT of games I want to purchase but I don't want to purchase them because I don't want to waste the money I get(which is very little) on video games! For example, Mortal Kombat comes out the 19th. I have the money to get it and I REALLY have been dying to get it but I just want to save up my money and buy other stuff. Yet I know I'll regret it if I pass on it.

I mean I guess getting a job and having my money could possibly fix this problem but I just don't want to have that feeling of missing out on a anxiously awaited game and having to listen to others whether at school or even here talk about it and know that you just missed out on a game you wanted. I mean its not like I haven't felt this way before but I guess now it's really effecting me, like DUDE its only a video game!

But to add to that I've also gotten that feeling of when I'm playing a game that I could be using my time doing something more useful. All my friends are going to the gym I mean I want to go too, Also I could be looking for a job already! It's not that playing video games makes you a no-life but sometimes it makes you feel like one. It seems to like keep you from doing things you've wanted to do! I mean I'm pretty chubby the gym would definitely help and losing wait will help build my confidence but when you're playing video games and engaged into it how are you suppose to get up and tell yourself "I'M GOING TO THE GYM"!

And this Fall there are many many games I want! I think from Sept to November it'll be 5 games I want, which is a lot for that time period. It's like I'm looking forward to for what the games provide but for what they are? I'd hate myself if I get them all! It's to the point in my life where I need to start making moves for my future! Whether it's getting fit, geting good grades, or just getting some talent! I'm always told that at 17 you should have your life set cause at 18 things change! Things start taking off and before you know it life could be better or worse! And my lifes been bad I'm looknig for it to excel!