So some may know this, others may not but my biological father gave me up when I was a baby.

I've never really thought of him before, to me he was always this myth, like Santa. But the other day I found this old picture, I recognized a really young looking mom and a man. I flip it over and it says: To Louisa (my mom)
Found this picture a few days ago, thought you'd like it, happy birthday, I love you.

So understandably I was freaked out, so I keep looking through this old box where I found it and there was another one, this time it was him holding a baby...as you can probably guess it was me.

I look so much like him, I have his hair, his chin and his eyes, it's just so...surreal.

I haven't told my mom yet because well she doesn't like to talk about him, she told me about him when I was younger, and that I wasn't allowed to try and find him. At the time I didn't give it much thought, but now I don't know.

It's weird to know that you will never get to see your real father, and now all I can think about is him, I remember asking my mom at the time if he loved me, she told me of course he did but I don't know...

I have a new dad now but all my life I've never thought of him as my dad, I wonder if I ever will.

Sorry if I've creeped you out I just felt like I had to write that down.