Disclaimer: Unless somewhere in your gamer heart you feel the dire need to empathize with the happenings of my life, then I'm not expecting to receive any. (Aka, I probably don't want any. =p) After all, I'm only posting this blog since I told you all I would. If I'm lucky, some may catch why I am the way I am today.
More or less, I was born 20 years ago on December 5th, 1989. My mother cemented a cool name onto me: "Johnathan Johnson". I was raised on heavy love from my mother and loads of endurance love from my father. Since as long as I could remember, my dad always found the smallest things to yell at me about. Often, meaning almost every day, my father would punish me by making me do 20-100 push ups and then 20 sit ups, depending on his mood or my deeds.
This doesn't sound too bad, actually. However, as life would have it, it can't leave things as simple as that. Have you ever been in a pushup position for over 45 minutes? On the stairs/bathroom sink/what has you? At a fairly young age? This was common fair as well for me. And the justification would often be because I didn't clean up to his standards. Or rather, I couldn't clean up to his standards. (Army guy) I guess in the end he helped build my body into one that can take some serious abuse. So it works out in a way. Anyway, this is pretty much my life from years 1-9.
As you all should pretty much guess, my dad finally left everyone when I turned 9/10. But he left us in a financially critical condition that I was still too ignorant to grasp the scope of. On top of that, he left right during my mother's pregnancy with my youngest sister. This was no doubt the beginning of the death of my blissful world, where the only thing "bad" was my father's treatment towards me at times.
In four year's time, I learned that some children act evil, people don't want to help you if you don't have money, people expect others to randomly be able to come up with cash when they're in serious trouble, my father was living nice and healthy, even got himself all the latest toys and gadgets like an expensive car, and, that people tend to make up logic or realities and use it to argue with. And because they have power, they had the final say and what is "truth". Ah, justice and court.
When things got better, just about three years later, I went from cheerful, ignorant and confident, to observant, quiet, and cold. Right around the time I initially signed up for Gamespot. That being said, I think you all remember how I unapologetically used to slam people for whatever I deemed to be a stupid post. I'm not even quite sure why TTDog gave me a glance. He was one of the people I tried to slam. Anyone noticing something important? Not once have I mentioned women and relationships!
I, for the most part, considered that a far away world where only pain and stupidity awaited me if I tried to enter a relationship. After all, during the time, I had no real social skills back then. Leave it to a lovely Mexican to slip through my barriers. xD Right when it happened, I made a noticable change with my posting. Some of you remember me being overall more patient with idiots who tried to troll me and more understandable towards arguments bought to me. That, was because of her. So feel free to blame her. =p We're close friends, Andrea and I, but until some drama in my life is fixed first, I won't be going out with her again, or anyone else for that matter.
A lovely Filipina woman that also found a way to get close to me made a 180 on me. Like, she has changed darastically. 0_o In short: Her and I were nicknamed "Mirrors" for being so close to each other as well as having the same logic/thoughts. But now she's trying to spin the tale that apparently I have the ability to lead an entire group of people into betraying her, as well as staging events in her life (?) to destroy her life. And somehow succeeded. Therefore, by this tested and true logic for which I am accused, she now believes (so she says) that I'm out to destroy her life and I'm pretty much, evil. You can imagine my complete and utter pain I went through when she VASTLY preferred to believe that than to just talk it out. Logical woman is logical. Needless to say, I was, and still am, in no mood, to hear anything else illogical or slander on my name right now.
Speaking on the matter, I've been screwed over by family logic and woman-logic alike. In the end, it was all justified under "It's my opinion, and since you're you, you better deal with it because it's the absolute truth.". I've grown tired of it. Justifying stupidity or ignorance under "opinions". The whole disrespecting me as a human being just because I don't abide the script known as life. And worst yet, it's contradicting to their own logic! "Just because" doesn't cut it for me.
And finally, the side Gamespot simply doesn't see about me, since it would be deemed off topic. =p My personality outside of arguments and/or enduring faulty-logic is actually a pretty emotional one. I cringe at the very concept that someone may genuinely hate me after getting to know me, I hate being lied on, and I actually hate hurting people's feelings. Even if the person wrongs me, I rather not go overkill and milk pain out of them for all it's worth. Some say I don't like some of the members here, but I'm being honest when I say the quickest way to find out how wrong you are is to hurt someone I care for. I've lost absolutely no sleep behind Gamespot or its members. Even those who blindly call me an ignorant child for going against the unspoken laws of Gamespot. (Thou shall not dislike generic games, apparently.) Needless to say, It's very easy to annoy me, hard to anger me, but you're pretty special if you have hurt me.
That covers everything I think! =D You all know I'm a music fanatic that believes people need to keep an open mind for all things, all genres, or at least admit they're narrow-minded in a said area. (ANIME) Stay tuned next time for my top three most emotional experiences in gaming. Expect spoilers, sirs and ladies!