I haven't turned it on for at least two weeks. :| I should really be playing my DMC games...But I was stuck in the first game, so I kind of quit playing it for a while. I would play the second game, but I want to finish the first one before I start. >_>

hmm..I should also be finishing my .hack games. I haven't played any of them since around the beginning of July. D:

*slams head against wall* Actually, I have a biology project to finish... eh, I'll do it tomorrow. It's not all that important. :P

I think I'll play video games later instead. =D

No, it's not because I'm always happy. :P It's because I'm always amused. I'm not sure if it even makes sense, but...oh well. Anyways, I'm not going to bother explaining how everything amuses me. There are more important things to talk about.

Like the fact that I have my laptop back! =D

There's something wrong with the keyboard though. :| The 'n' key was messed up, but I think after hitting it so many times, I've fixed it. The space bar key is still messed up though. >_>; And I think my internet is running a lot slower than it used to. ;-;

Also, I've been planning to write a short story to help me sort my thoughts out, but I don't think I'll actually write it. Even if I do, it won't be good; I have no writing skills. :P

Yesterday I asked my mom when I would get my laptop back. She just laughed at me and said "It'll be a looong time. Don't expect it back anytime soon." I didn't respond; I just went to my room and tried to sleep.

That's all I do anymore. I just....sleep. :? Occasionally I'll start playing a video game, but I usually turn it off after about 15 minutes. >_>;

I think today I'll play RE4, DMC1, and maybe FFXII. Oh, and I think my step-dad comes home today, so I might be able to play our 360 again. :'D

There's not much to say about my life lately....It's been quite dull. There's not much to do without my laptop. :|

Anyways, I should leave before my mom gets back from wherever she is.

I'll be back...sometime...I don't know when. V_V; *waves*

[I think I miss you guys a bit too much. ;-;]

My mom took my laptop and I probably won't get it back until next week or so. I'm so horribly bored now. D: [I am getting more sleep though, and I'm actually finishing my homework...]

I won't be able to respond to any PMs right now; my mom will be back soon, so I don't have much time.

*sigh* I'll see you all...whenever I get back again... V_V

I want to make my own though. I don't know what to put on it, or how to do it, but I will get it done! [after I procrastinate] :P

Not much has really been happening lately. There's a bunch of...inside jokes[?] that have been made between me and my group of friends at school though. ['If I would've video taped that...' 'I will kick you!' 'Zombie ninjas!' 'I'm my own species.' 'This goes against my religion!!' 'I love reading the dictionary.' 'It's because I'm short, right?' 'That damn rat stares at me.' 'It's okay to hate me; someone else in this world loves me!' 'I like your dead fish.' 'I'll papercut your throat if you don't shut up.'] .....I'm actually the one who said most of those. O_o

Anyways, I've spent my entire day playing DMC3:SE, and it's the most fun I've had all week. [I think] I thought of playing FFXII today, too, but I've been having too much fun. :P

Also, despite how much I want a new laptop, I have gotten no money at all lately. I still have about 50$. :cry: *sigh* I guess I'll just have to keep sitting here uncomfortably for another year. :P

Oh well; life's good. :)

I would've done this on Friday, but my mom took my laptop. >_>

Anyways, I've been here on GS for a little over a year now, and....just...wow. :lol: I made this account after lurking in the forums for a while. I remember thinking 'well, if I ever get bored enough I'll actually post something.' I did happen to post a few times before summer break, but I was never really active and I hadn't bothered to track anyone.

Then I went to my great-grandma's house in June. There wasn't much to do there, so I stayed on the computer all day. I don't know how it happened or why, but I did start posting a bit more. [I lurked more often though.] Around that time, there were a few people who interested me and I thought 'hey, I should track them...maybe.'

Thus, I did. I remember the first two people I tracked [Xx_Hopeless_xX and warownslife], but I can't remember anything else. I can't think of how I actually made friends, but I do know that my friends here are much better than my friends from school. [Probably just because you guys know me for who I actually am. Or something like that. O_o]

Overall, I'm glad I started posting here. :) Kudos to all of my friends and the OT community! ♥

Also, I beat DMC3 yesterday, so I went and bought DMC1, 2, and Special Edition 3 afterwards. Now I just have to beat them. :P

[and I'm procrastinating again]

I'm making a short blog about....rainmeter! :o

I'm still trying to figure out what to do with it though; I'm so confused. oh well.

School's getting better now that the first week is over. They serve hot chocolate and cappuccino in the library, too. :'D

Also, my poor ps2 has been on for the past few days. :| I'd turn it off, but I'm in the middle of a DMC3 mission, and I'm too lazy to finish. Plus, I've been meaning to draw something for my notebook, but....I'm too lazy to do that too. >_>

Argh, I really need to accomplish something today..

Oh, and I was wondering what you all think of me, so...what do you think of me? :P

...but I like staying up late, and that's what I'm going to do tonight! :x

I'd really like to be outside though. It's so damn nice and perfect.....It'd be better if it was a little cooler though. :P

So anyways, despite having school tomorrow, I'm going to stay up. What am I going to do? Play video games, finish my geometry homework, read some of Edgar Allan Poe's stories and poems, and maybe watch some Silent Hill LP videos. Oh, and I might finally draw a cover for my binder...notebook. Yeah, my notebook that I use a a binder. Or something.

And we have no soda at my house at the moment. We don't have milk either. :cry: Currently I'm drinking some of my mom's dr. pepper from a fast food place, but it won't last me long. I'll be forced to drink apple juice or water soon. argh.

Also, I've been trying to keep myself from thinking too deeply, but it isn't working. Hell, earlier today I almost had a panic attack from it. It doesn't help that I keep getting more paranoid either. I keep thinking that my friends will just leave me for some reason, and entirely stop talking to me. :( Irrational, I know, but I can't help it. They have no reason to stay around me; there are so many people who could actually show them empathy and kindness. I was nice when I first moved here since I was young, hadn't thought much about anything at all, and hadn't talked to very many people. Now they see me completely different, and I'm not who they seem to think I am. Sure I have trouble being sympathetic and expressing how I feel, but I still have feelings. They shouldn't insist that I'm a heartless jackass. None of them can take me seriously either, because I'm always ****ing smiling for no reason. What the hell do I smile for? It doesn't matter if I'm angry, happy, or sad, I always seem to have a small smile on my face. It's like I'm entertained by anything that's going on around me or something.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

Dammit, I should stop thinking before I get depressed again or say something I'll regret, if I haven't already...

I'm going back to Abilene on Sunday. [I forgot why] We'll only be there for a day, but....This ruins the plans I had made, even though they weren't much....I wanted to clean up my room, play DMC3 and beat it, draw, post here more, and maybe start on my mini project for that auto-tech class. I probably wouldn't have done any of that anyways though, except playing DMC3 and posting more. :P

And after a long while of not being interested in any anime or video game, I'm happy that the DMC series has caught my attention. :'D [which you can rightfully blame Vergil for.] Although with the new Bleach episodes that air tomorrow, I might be more interested in that instead soon....

Aside from that, geometry confused me today and I failed my geography pre-test. :| Plus, some guy....er...my friend...in my auto-tech class asked me for my number. :x [I found my phone yesterday under a pile of papers in my room. - yeah, it was lost.] I should've just told him "No. You can't have my number." but no, I decided "eh, why not?" >_> Stupid idea, but as long as he doesn't actually call me, I'll be fine with it.

I have something against phone calls, just so you know. I only answer calls when it's my mom calling me, and the extremely rare times I talk to my friends over the phone. I never call anyone either. *hates talking over the phone*

Oh, and the title for this blog...you can blame Vergil for that as well. :lol: ...Actually, blame this. I swear, it's eating my brain. I should stop listening to it; I think I have all of it memorized. >_>

I'm going to go play...well, you can guess. :P

♥

First day [and today] wasn't terrible, but I still hate it. Lunch flat out sucks, halls get crowded all the damn time, and people keep trying to talk to me. :( They just want to talk to me and I have no idea how to continue a conversation. *shrugs* Oh well. [how I have friends, I'm not sure.] Lunch would be decent if this one guy sat with us again. He's perverted and he flirts with me, but hell, it makes lunch interesting. >_>

Waiting for the bus in the afternoon sucks too, especially since it's hot and I wear jeans, dark clothes, and usually my jacket. [which I was questioned about on the first day. "Hey, why are you wearing a jacket out here?" How rude. >_>]

That PRINTDL class happens to be some sort of auto-tech...engineering..class thing. Everyone else in the class was like "I want to work on cars!" or "I want to learn this stuff!" and I'm just sitting there...."I have no idea why I'm here." O_o

Also, somehow my safety pins didn't get me in trouble and neither did carrying my school bag. O_o My safety pins will be a problem if someone deems it 'against dress code,' but I keep getting told that it's awesome, and something this awesome shouldn't be taken away. [ha, watch someone get pissed at me tomorrow for having them. >_>] I'll probably end up being known as 'the girl with the safety pins on her jacket.' Great. *facepalm*

And today, since my bus was way late and the schedule's been messed up, I had to drink lemonade to keep myself from dying of thirst. [it wasn't even good! it didn't have any sugar...] Plus, my friend/enemy threw a grasshopper at me; and of course, my luck comes in and the grasshopper flies off before it hits me. ha. 8)

....I miss summer. Staying up late, not having to deal with people who annoy me, not being outside in the heat, and relaxing. I do like having something to do everyday, but....it's not stuff I like. :/

Anyways, I have things to finish up. [papers. the same damn papers we get every year. argh...]