It's my birthday today.

So, tomorrow is an exam. English. I feel very uncomfortable and insecure. I don't want it anymore. I am afraid. I did some exercises and they didn't went well. I even don't know what should I learn. I don't know anything.

Well, I know that I should go to work, but where?? And then I should find a nice, cheap and little apartment. That means I should have a job where my salary is BIG !!

The other thing I know is I should try to go to school, but where? I would like to study aeronautics and become a pilot, but it's in Tartu and I hate that town. Also there are needed high maths and physics. I am not good at physics. Maybe I wont pass the physical and psychological test. So I am not going there, at least not that year.
Then being an optician seems to be interesting too, but then I have to cut my nails and I don't like that. Also there are several things together that I like - communication, design, beeing useful.
Then maybe it is useful to study economy. But it is going to cost a lot, well ...too much.
What about being an accountant (book-keeper) ? Maybe sudying it would be hard, but I don't know. I am going to try this one if I will get the free place to study.
But I like salon management and beeing a nailartist or makeup artist. I would like to open my own salon one day, but I don't know if it's going to be successful, because look around- Salons are in every corner of the town. And I have always thought that only those who are not capable of going to college or university are going to study hairdressing and that stuff..

I don't know exactly what I want and money is problem.
I hate saying that!
But wait...I know what I want.. I want a job where I can wear pretty clothes and be beautiful:D