CHERISH YESTERDAY - LIVE TODAY - DREAM TOMORROW

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I sit here at midnight trying to think of something to write. It's a common occurence for me to want to write a blog while running on empty, but now it means more than anything to me. I've written 1,039 blogs and I will conclude the 1,040 as my final blog.

It is not a personal decision to want to stop by no means. On Monday a friend on facebook posted a comment about how TV.com would get rid of the blog feature on their website. You can read the story right here. I was a bit taken back by my friend's post. My first reaction was to ask them if they were sure, why would they get rid of such a promient feature? My friend told me to read the article (the one i linked above). I was at a loss of words.

The main the reason the mods, or whoever is in charge of the site at late, are getting ride of the blog feature is because it is not used much. Which is ironic because the site in general is not used much. I was so angry and so sad at the same time with this annoucement. You are probably thinking something along the lines of "hey it's just the blogs they are getting rid of nothing else". Well it means more than just that, removing the blog feature will once and for all end my time at TV.com.

I joined TV.com in March 19, 2006. I was a then 12 year old in the seventh grade, that's right still in middle school. My mom originally created the account while looking for Friends trvia. Her favorite show, she then eventually gave the account to me and told me to have fun. Remember this was in the days before facebook.

From there I met a lot of friends, I became the editor of pages, wrote reviews, talked in the forums without knowing exactly what I was talking about and most importantly I bloged and bloged. Blogging was where I just lented out about everything. Blogging on TV.com was to me my escape. And that I did for six years. Eventually leaving middle school for highschool, writing about how awkward puberty is, getting ditched at the dance, getting my license, taking the SATS, watching my parents marriage fall apart to finally graduating highschool and starting college.

I currently now a sophomore in college, a far cry from that silly little 12 year old. But my time at TV.com came to a screeching hault in November 2009 when I was abruptly banned with no reason. I logged in my account and I was unable to do anything, I recieved a blank message in my PM and to this day I still have no clue why I was banned.

The bannishment hit me hard, as everything I had done for those few years now seemed like it was a total waste. I lost all the pages I edited and most importantly and I could no longer blog. I lost my place to vent. Eventually I found a loophole in that the sister sites did not ban me and that I could still write blogs that would show up on TV.com so I would not loose the connections I had. I started on MovieTome, which eventually ceased to exists until I was left with just GameSpot to continue writing. That I did until now.

I went back and looked at my page and found out I had been erased from the pages I edited. Just look at some of the pages I used to edit here, here and here. Slowly my existence and everything I have worked for has been erased. Everything that I have done since I was 12 now really feels so unimportant that I feel almost as though I wasted so my time doing something that In the end of the day really had no purpose. And that it does, TV.com is nothing more than a joke.

The blogs were my last connection to the site, since they were the only thing left I could do. And now that is over. I just wanted to get a chance to say goodbye to everyone still here, it's not a waste knowing that I have met so many incredible people over the past six years here. I have grown up so much from that little 12 year old kid, but I still have much to learn. I want to thanks my friends who although gone, are still here with us.

Hoffman9102 and bender21345. Your death's were so tragic to everyone and your passing were a huge loss to the site. You guys even made the front page :) What I really learned from their deaths was what a community this site really was. In the most human of element, everyone rallied behind a fallen friend, that is what this site really meant to me.

- sincerely Pat H.

And now for the final time:(:cry::(

GOODNIGHT AND HAVE A PLEASANT TOMORROW.