well,

seeing how i havent been on much, and have increased my laziness to a point where i rarely make the time to write a blog. I decided to do something productive and write a typical speech of how is not the gifts that matter in christmas but the peoples...:roll:...w/e

*sigh* *thinx*

Normally this is my most chippery season in all the year except for the one fact that THIS YEAR SUCKED!!!!

lol jk.

it actually wasnt all that bad, infact ive met the love of my life, I have wonderful siblings (even though the little one can be a bit elf-ish at times), and i found out, that if i look hard enough, i have many people around me that care and that theres no real reason why i should waste a perfect holiday drowning in my miseries.

My wonderful older sis helped me realize that with this crazy coversation we had via Email:

Me: YAAYY! thanx Alathea! :D
oh, are you coming down for winter break?

Her: Hi Rae!

No, I will not be able to come down for Christmas :(, but I think that we wll try to work things out so that you guys could come up for a week... How is everything? I know I didn't get to speak with you very much this morning because you were tired. How's school? Your friends? Basketball? Teen-age life?? I know it can be hard sometimes being an older sister because of all the responsibility, but I'm positive that you will get through it and that you will get through it with a type of fashion sense, grace, and maturity that leaves alot to be admired. Just remember to pray. I'll always be here ok? You can call, email, or im any time if you want to talk. Enjoy the Bear-ville site!

Love,

Alathea

me: oh ok... :(
things are the usual for me.
schools ok .
friends are ok.
basketballs ok.

and my teenage life is slowly being destroyed.

so yeah, i guess life is going pretty good for me at this moment.

and as far as grace, fashin-sense and maturity is concerned:
1) i tripped over the floor
2) i found out im the only one that thinks baby blue and orange matches
and
3) i eat baby cereal for breakfast and still live with my mom...

lol

and Build-A-Bearville was fun, thanx ^_^

Love ya too,
Rae

Her:

Hahahah. As far as fashion-sense and grace is concerned, I guess it might take a little while for it to kick in, huh? Take me for instance...

1. Yesterday, I fell upthe stairs,

2. I just realized that you CANNOT cook fish in the microwave (or at least you cant cook it the way that I did)

3. And, when my coworkers ask me what I'm doing for the holidays, I lie and say that I'm spending time with my family and pretend that we have all of these wonderful things planned...

But I know that life will get better... I believe that I have some sort of say in how my life will be and I am determined to make it asamazing and wonderfulas possible. And, I remember that I'm blessed, it helps to go over the things that are going well in my life. It gives me hope, you know?

1. I have two wonderful and beautiful sisters
2. I have a great job
3. I'm finally living on my own...

So, that keeps me going. How is your teenage life falling apart?? Please explain. Maybe I can help? Or at least talking aboutmight help... (P.S. Why are you eating baby cereal for breakfast? What's that all about?)

me te amo,

Alathea

me: *sigh* yeah...i suppose after all
1) im still alive
2) im doing well in school
and
3) my family cares...well some/sometimes...

and i guess it only feels like my life is falling apart, but maybe my teenage mood swings have something to do with that illusion...

(oh, and Cerelac is awesome thats why...no wonder babies always cry for that stuff)
lol

Love,
Rae (again) =P

P.S- Dont feel bad, i trip up the stairs all the time.

~fin of our conversation~

so yeah, i guess you can undersand why adore her so much. she works really hard trying to make me feel better about wats going on. and i realize that im very fortunate to have someone like her in my life. *teary eyed* *sniffles*

...ANYWAYS..... to cheer up this sappy moment i edited a pic i found on the internet!^_^

yeah...i was bored :P