Ever since I dumped my girlfriend for cheating on me, there's been another girl on my mind: Ciara. Everything I do makes me think about her. I always think about her, talk about her; even dream about her. Physically, Ciara is about 5' 6'', white, very dark brown hair, dark skin, perfect body, and a big backyard. (=D) Here's some background between me and Ciara:

I really first met Ciara in 8th grade - 2 years ago. Back then I didn't like her, because I thought she was incredibly stuck up and had quite an attitude on her. However, after a while, I started hearing rumors that she liked me, and for the strangest reason, I started to like her. Every day after lunch I would walk back to class when Ciara would hurry up to me saying, "You're so hot, Sasha. I'm going to go out with you."

We both started to like each other alot, but never went out that year. We both constantly reminded each other that we were going to go out, but we wanted to hold it off until the next school year. By the time summer hit after 8th grade I was obsessed over her; I couldn't get her out of my mind and every second without her was pain.

Then finally, 9th grade came. Ciara had said she was going to find me the first day of school, when I thought we were going to start going out, but it never happened. I was in her 3rd hour class all of that year, and we barely talked. I started to think that she had started to lose interest, and finally gave up when I heard that she asked out a kid named Matt; who was probably my least favorite person I had met that year. I couldn't believe that she did that; I refused to believe it. She dashed my dreams and left me depressed for quite some time.

I started talking to her a bit towards the end of last year (still 9th grade), but it was all small talk and she snubbed me on several occasions. Each time felt like a dagger to my heart, and I prayed that I could just forget about her. Then 2 days later I asked out a girl named Allison. We went out until last November, when we mutually decided that it was best to split up.

Fortunately, after 1 1/2 years, my obsession for Ciara finally started to subside. I was able to go a day without grieving over her, and life was a little easier. However, that didn't last too long.

After my last girlfriend cheated on me, I had decided to give myself a little time before I dated another girl. That lasted for about a week; once again, I started to constantly think about Ciara. I thought I was over her, but unfortunately she still lurked in my mind.

Now, I don't know what to do. I haven't talked to her in a year, and I'm certain that she doesn't like me anymore. However, I just can't go and ignore her; it pains me just to think about it. Every morning I wake up and I feel torn over my situation, and I really don't know what to do...

Well, if you read this, thanks for listening.