Well, seems gamesradar gave me the slip. for now. i don't understand how anyone can get into the media side of this industry (bearing in mind that i've made no real attempt to do so...yet). i've spent my life reading, writing, and playing videogames. it seems like the most logical career path for me. but there are so many others. it's a media facet that is saturated with wannabes and hopefuls. i'm just another of those.

wish i could afford a ps3.

i feel as though i'm in the midst of a culmination of video gaming progress. do any of you get that? is anyone reading this? enjoying it? are you enjoying it? i feel as though i've been waiting for 20 years for right about now. i feel as though things are about to change drastically; are about to enter a new echelon. clearly, with the ps3 and wii on the way, we will be brought into yet another platform generation. next-gen, all over again. but how i feel goes beyond that. i feel as though things will change globally. and yet, i'm not talking about online play. i think we need to tone down the online play, personally. what happened to single player games? they used to be cool...i can remember it. no, i feel as though how videogames are seen by the general public is about to be redefined. just not sure why i feel that way, or what it means.

now's the time, for me. now is when i need to make a move, if i want to break into this industry. i'm 24. stats don't lie; i'm the (approximate) video gaming demographic. i'm peaking. only decline will follow-a sort of gaming menopause. watch out when that happens. and my god, the mood swings. oh, the mood swings.

this whole entry was pointless. i've lost interest in blackthorne because i started playing crono trigger. final fantasy xii is en route. it's gold (i think? is it gold yet?) and ready to be received by me. i worry that it won't be up to par, but i'm always proved wrong. i finished chaos theory (xbox), and the ending was dull, at best.

so many things are on the horizon for us gamers.